How Do I Find My Way Back To You? -minizerk AU- (sequel)

Lewis's P.O.V.

Simon and I decided to take a walk down at the beach. It is always so nice to go out and go for a walk. Especially when I get to walk with Simon. There is just something so special about him that makes me feel all tingly on the inside. I know that he is dating Josh and I know how they feel about one another. They are truly in love with one another, but I could treat him so much better. I could show him a whole entire new way of life.

"Hey." Simon said as he walked out his room.

I'm guessing he had finished his conversation with Josh. They were talking for hours.

"So how is he doing?" I asked as Simon sat down on the couch right next to me.

"He's doing better than before." Was all Simon said as he turned on the Leeds game.

I knew I couldn't speak or that would just annoy him. I feel pushed aside. Once Josh comes back I'm just one of his sidehoes.

We just sat there watching the game. I started to feel tired so I lied down and accidentally touched Simon where a friend should never touch.

"What the hell dude?!" Simon said as he got up off the couch.

"I didn't realize you were so close to me." I said trying to cover up my stupidity.

"Why don't you go to sleep in your room? You snore anyway." Was all Simon said as he walked away into his bedroom.

My heart sank and I felt exactly where I was in the beginning of our relationship.

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Once Simon finished his game and I had taken a nap, we decided to get frozen ice cream. I asked for my normal and so did Simon. We sat down at the beach and started to eat our ice cream.

"I'm sorry about before, I shouldn't have freaked out on you. I am just use to Josh doing things like that and for someone else, I know it was an accident it was just still pretty weird. I'm normally used to being with Josh on a daily basis, to just be able to talk to him on screen and that is it, it's just weird. I love him so much and I am so scared of losing him." Simon said looking down at his ice cream.

"It's fine. Don't worry about it." I said while the truth was that I was in pain.

I wish he could feel that way towards me, but he doesn't.

"Can we just move on from the whole situation I hate thinking about Josh in pain and then thinking about him like that because then I feel even more in pain." Simon said looking up at me smiling.

He had a tear falling down his cheek so I lifted up my hand and put it to his cheek. I wiped away the tear and he just turned and my hand slipped off.

Simon got a call and picked it up and walked away leaving me on the curb by myself. All I could hear was his laughter. I didn't want to look back because I felt weird if I had done so.

I had gotten a text, it was from Callux. We had talked ever since Simon introduced us. Simon has really only introduced me to a few of his friends. The weird part was is that Cal isn't one of his closest friends. He is actually not even that close to him at all. Then it got even weirder when I had the chance to meet Josh but I was only able to say a few words and then I wasn't even able to talk to him after.

I feel like Simon likes me as a friends, but he doesn't truly like me because he is still really weird when it comes to me.

"Hey sorry about that." Simon sat down on the curb.

His face looked pale, like he was told that someone had died or that he was dying.

"What happened?" I asked as he turned his head to look at me.

"My grandpa died." He said as I grabbed him and hugged him.

All I could hear was him crying and I could feel his tears sinking into my shirt.

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A little while later and Simon wanted to go back to his house. Leaving me all alone in our dorm room.

That was the first time Simon has actually felt safe enough to tell me something and let me comfort him.

I feel so bad, but so happy. I got to hug him and it felt amazing.

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