Forever and Always (Sciles)

87: Scott's Insecurities - Part Two

"Um... Well, I guess I'm jealous of her because she's everything that I can't be. She could offer everything to Stiles, but I can't. I'm just a stupid werewolf that can never be able to live with him underwater forever, I can't provide him a family, I'm no Royal by a long shot, I can't be responsible to help protect and rule the kingdom and so on. It sucks, but that's just how the way it is. Every time I saw Moselle... It just reminds me of everything that I'm not. I just... I don't feel like I'm good enough for Stiles, you know? He deserves someone better than me. A lot better." I finally admit to Stiles' dad, whose sadness in his eyes continues to grow, especially as he frowns in concern.

"Do you really think that, Scott?" John asks me.

"Well, yeah." I mumble, continuing to fiddle with my hands a bit, afraid of what John would say. I'm terrified that he will say that I'm right. "Do you really believe that Stiles would think that you're not good enough for him?" John questions me curiously. I consider his question for a few moments.

"No, he's made his point clear on it, and I really want to believe him, and I do, but sometimes life screws with people and it doesn't matter what people want." I sigh in response. John sighs sadly, gazing at me sympathetically. He stands up, walks over to where I'm sitting and sits down beside me.

"Look, Scott. What I'm about to tell you is the absolute truth, okay?" The Sheriff begins. I nod in understanding, wondering where this is going.

"You have been a part of this family for many years now, which I know Stiles and I are both grateful for. I see you basically as my second son and I would be absolutely devastated and hate it if you got hurt, or worse. I try to protect you and look after you. I was scared that Thalassa would kill you if she knew you and Stiles were dating. She's a dangerous woman, which was definitely proven when she tried to destroy this town. That's why I thought you two should have broken up." John begins to tell me with a serious expression on my face.

"You have done so much for Stiles and I since we first came here, I wouldn't be able to list all of the things that you have done for us. I will tell you that we are both grateful for that," John continues.

"Okay, but what has this got to do with me dating Stiles, but doubting that I have anything great to offer him and Atlantia?" I ask curiously.

"One big thing that I will mention is that you helped save Atlantia, Scott. You were brave and were willing to fight for our kingdom. I know Stiles is forever grateful for that. He has admitted to me he doesn't know how he would have done it without you or the others." John explains to me.

"Yeah, so?" I shrug, not seeing the point.

"You're willing to fight for our kingdom and defend it, Scott. That means everything." John tells me plainly and clearly, wanting me to get the message.

"You might not think you have much to offer, but you do. You're willing to fight for the kingdom, you're brave, determined, kind and so on. They are all admirable qualities to have." Mr Stilinski continues to explain to me.

"You've kept our secret too. You've accepted us. Stiles was terrified that you wouldn't react well, but I think he was pleasantly surprised and immensely relieved when you proved his fear wrong." John comments.

"And don't forget how you have saved my son's life many times, just as he has saved yours. You helped save him from Thalassa. You and Kara knew something was wrong and were trying to stop it while I was completely oblivious. I should have protected Stiles better. I should have at least known that it wasn't the real him." John continues with a sad smile.

"It's not your fault, John. Thalassa outsmarted everyone and almost got away with it. She would have too, if it wasn't for Kara." I remind him.

"And I think one of the biggest reasons, if not the biggest reason that you are good enough for Stiles and to be with him is that you love him.  You love him with all of your heart. That is clear as day for anyone. You would do anything for him, perhaps even die for him. Although, I'd rather it not come down to that. Anyway, I trust you with Stiles' life. I know that you can keep him safe, make him feel loved and help him through the toughest situations. I know that he does the same for you too. All I have ever wanted for Stiles is for him to be happy. You make him happy and are the love of his life. That's more than I could have ever asked for, Scott. It doesn't matter whether you're Royal, nor does it matter if you're a merman, human or werewolf. You've got a big heart and that's all anyone really needs. Thank you." John tells me sincerely with a grateful smile. I feel my cheeks heating up in a slight blush.

"And, as for the whole family issue. You don't have to worry about that or beat yourself up over it just because you can't produce a child. There are ways around it, Scott. There are adoption and surrogacy options. We will find ways around it. The problem is very insignificant and shouldn't be worried about. Besides, you and Stiles are young. You don't need to talk about kids for a long time yet. I promise you that it will all be okay though." The Sheriff adds kindly, squeezing my shoulder comfortingly.

"Thanks, Sheriff." I reply with a grateful smile.

"Stiles loves you so much, Scott. I've never seen him happier than when he is with you. The two of you remind me of how Claudia and I used to be." The Sheriff smiles softly at me. It's my turn to gaze sympathetically at him.

"You still miss her a lot, don't you?" I ask. John nods in response.

"Every day. There's not a day that goes by that I don't miss her. I still love her. I wish I had the chance to say goodbye. I wish I didn't leave her down in Atlantia to fight Vanessa all on her own. I feel so guilty about doing that. Maybe if I was there, I could have protected her." John answers with a sad sigh.

"But, if I had done that, I would have left Stiles all on his own. I couldn't do that. I couldn't let him lose both of his parents like that in one day. Claudia also made me promise to look after him and protect him, so that's exactly what I did. Of course I wanted to keep Stiles safe to the best of my abilities as well. Now, he's the only family I have left and I swear I would do anything to protect him and keep him safe, even though I haven't done the best job of that lately." John continues, his eyes starting to water slightly. I shake my head a little.

"You've still got Mom and I as well. You still have family, Sheriff. We all protect each other." I reply in a confident, firm and reassuring tone.

"Thanks, Scott." The Sheriff smiles kindly at me.

"Any time." I reply easily.

"Just don't forget Scott, that you are more than good enough to be with Stiles. You deserve to be with each other. Your worries can easily be worked around, whether that be reassuring you they aren't true or finding other solutions to them. I would much rather for Stiles to spend the rest of his life with you and marry you rather than some princess or prince that he doesn't even know. You're the best person for Stiles, hands down." The Sheriff concludes. I feel my own eyes getting a little teary and my heart feels warm and touched by everything that John said to me.

"Thank you." I whisper appreciatively before I pull John into one of the biggest bear hugs ever. I'm very grateful that John came and talked to me. It has made me feel a lot better about the whole thing. John always seems to know what to say. I've always looked up to him a fatherly figure. He was here for me when my own dad wasn't. I'm grateful that John is so caring understanding and wants to look out for me. I hope I can do the same for him.

"Any time,  Scott. Any time." John whispers back as he hugs me tightly, rubbing circles soothingly on my back.

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A/N: Here's a surprise update in the honour of my good friend YourYodaStilesIs , as it is her birthday today. I wish her an amazing birthday and hope she has an amazing day and enjoys this new chapter. I hope you guys all like it too. Until next time, happy reading!