Forever and Always (Sciles)

120: Afraid

"I personally think they would be a good couple. I think they'd be able to challenge one another and make each other a better person. Their personalities are similar as well." Stiles comments.

"Yeah, I agree." I nod in response.

"So, what ya reading?" Stiles asks curiously, eying the text book lying on the sofa.

"Oh, just some chemistry stuff the teacher sent us." I reply casually. Stiles wrinkles his noes in distaste, which makes me chuckle a little bit.

"Eww. No thanks. I've been hurt enough today as it is. I don't need chemistry to hurt my brain too." Stiles replies with an edge of sarcasm, causing me to roll my eyes.

"Well, at least I won't fail the final that's coming up soon. I hope you're studying for those, Stiles." I remind my friend with a sense of warning in my tone.

"Pfft, of course I've been studying for finals, Kara. It's the most important part of the most important school year." Stiles answers with a slight scoff, which gives me the suspicion that Stiles hasn't been studying as much as he should have been. I hope that Stiles hasn't been a bad influence on Scott.

"Just let me read in peace, Stiles. You go do your own homework or something. I'll let you know when Ben and your dad come home." I tell my friend. Stiles' face immediately falls.

"Kara, you can't tell my dad about what happened today." Stiles tells me seriously.

"What? Why not?" I ask in confusion.

"I don't want him to worry about me. He's worried about me enough already." Stiles explains.

"Coach will probably tell your dad anyway." I remind Stiles. Teachers don't let bullying and harassment go under the radar. Coach will definitely be talking to parents.

"Yeah, I know, but... I just hope that won't be for a couple days, you know? It'd just be better if you don't tell him right now. Promise me you won't tell him, Kara." Stiles pleads with me, grabbing onto my hand and squeezing it gently, an almost desperate look in his eyes. I'm painstakingly reminded of Moselle's huge and potentially life changing secret that I'm still hiding from Stiles and I feel absolutely terrible about it. Stiles should know about Moselle's possible pregnancy, especially since he would be the father and this whole thing could alter his relationship with Scott. However, I promised Moselle that I wouldn't tell Stiles. It has been an extremely hard secret to keep, and I'm not sure if I can keep it from Stiles forever. I don't want people to get hurt, and Moselle's secret definitely has the potential to hurt Scott or Stiles. Scott especially doesn't deserve to be hurt by something like this. Stiles told me what his fantasy world was about, and it broke my heart. Especially the whole kid thing. Scott wants kids with Stiles, but I'm pretty sure he wouldn't have expected it to be anything like what is possibly happening.

I don't want to keep the baby thing a secret from Stiles, and I certainly don't want to keep any more secrets from anyone.  "Stiles, I don't know, I don't really like secrets..." I mumble, feeling hesitant.

"Come on, Kara. Please. For me." Stiles pleads with me, squeezing my hand once more, staring deep into my eyes. I sigh tiredly, deciding to give into defeat.

"Fine. I won't say anything to your dad." I say wearily, fed up with all these secrets and lies. Some day, the secrets are going to blow up and cause more problems than they would have if people were just honest to everyone else about the issues on the first place.

"Thanks, Kara. You're a life saver, I love you." Stiles grins and pats my shoulder before speeding out of the room to go and do whatever the hell he has got planned in his mind.