Wastelands → Newt [Movie Trilogy]

»"ADELINE'S LAST LETTER"

Dear, Newt.

I write this an hour after I told you. After I told you what terrified me to tell you — that I am infected with that virus. As I sit here, I've somehow managed to come to terms with the idea that in a matter of days, I will lose myself to the virus. We already know how fast it can turn someone, and I can feel how fast it is turning me into something else. Something I don't want to be.

But, whenever I feel like the virus is throwing everything off kilter, I try to remember who I am. Everyone who I care about. I think of our friends. I think of Minho, how he needs us. I think of those we lost — I think of Alby, Chuck, Winston. All those who make us keep going. And I think of you. Just like I had in the time we spent apart, because if I thought of you, I felt calmer. And just like that, everything comes flooding back to normal. And I feel like myself again. At least, until it goes off - kilter again.

But, I know that I don't have long until the virus consumes me completely and wipes every trace of who I am. Who I use to be. I've always been afraid of not being me. For whatever reason, this has always terrified me, and the last thing I want is for any of you to see a side of me that isn't me.

So, in case I don't see Minho again before I'm no longer me, I want you to tell him thank you. Thank you for being my friend, thank you for saving me. Thankyou, for saving your life and giving you that second chance.

And because I know I won't see Aris again, I want you to tell him I'm sorry for the little time we ever got to know each other without our memories. I want you to tell Thomas to stop beating himself up — that everyone we lost was never his fault. To tell Frypan that he was one of my best friends. And tell Gally that I forgive him for the way things went back in the Glade.

And I want you to know Newt, that I would never have left your side if I had the choice. If this wasn't my fate. Because I have fought by your side, time after time, and I would do it again. When I look at you, I see the boy who I managed to fall in love with in the most unexpected place and time of my life. You are the reason why I never gave up when WCKD took me and tortured me. Because I knew that there was no way that you or Thomas would give up on us — your friends. So I didn't give up on myself.

I can't lose you. But, with this fate now, it's a given you are going to lose me. And when I go, when I'm no longer me, I need you to hold on. Because that second chance you got, I won't allow you to waste so easily.

We've never said these words to one another, but I want you to know I mean it: I love you. Thank you for everything. Goodbye, Newt.

Love, Adeline.

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A/N:

Adeline wrote this letter in between the time frame that Newt told Thomas about his limp in chapter twenty eight and the time that Adeline appears back into the story at the end of that chapter. This letter shows how much Adeline believed she wouldn't be saved and that she would lose everyone she cared about, and how she was also terrified about losing herself to the virus. I did not include the letter into the storyline because I have a theory she would have ripped it up and threw it away days after arriving at the Safe Haven and being cured.

I really loved writing Adeline into the movie series, because these movies gave me plenty of things to work with and to incorporate into the storyline. I felt that she really fit into the movie universe quite well, and she obviously had more of a plot lines in them, too.

Thankyou for reading Wastelands, and once again thankyou for all the support with The Maze Trials Series. You're all amazing (no pun intended!). ♡

- Hayley