Fighting Bleeding Losing | Yeongyu / Beomjun

Soobin

Tonight... Tonight is the night. Soobin inhaled then exhaled. He tried to remember how to breathe but it was hard. He looked inside his bag to find a small object with "VENTOLIN" written on it. He slowly dragged the inhaler to his mouth.

Then it was like he learned again how to breathe. He took a deep breath -of the real air this time- and throw the inhaler on his bed. Soobin was determined, Beomgyu was right and he knew it, even if everything turns wrong and the both of Hyuka and Terry rejects him he still had Beomgyu.

He walked out of his dorm after taking his bag full of clothes and sighed again. "Man up Soobin don't be such a shit" he muttered to himself, looking at his shivering hands.

"I am strong. I deserve to be happy" Soobin tried to convince himself. After minutes, he walked to the bus stop to go the Hyuka's house, keeping his chin up. Waiting for the bus, he grabbed his phone to go on Instagram. He clicked on Terry's account and watched all of his publications again and again, Soobin wondered what Terry looks like. He only knew the boy's skateboard deck, the underside was black with many funky drawings and stickers on it and the wheels were yellow. Terry once said that he customized the deck himself. Soobin smiled at the memory.

The bus arrived after about ten minutes. Soobin hopped on the rather empty bus. After some minutes that seemed endless, he was there, in front of Huening Kai's house. "It's okay Soobin, you and Kai planned this sleep over two weeks ago, you won't give up now." Again Soobin spoke to himself as he was now in front of the Huening Family house. The house was rather small, even though Kai has his own room, his two sisters share theirs because the house only comprises 3 rooms . Kai's parents are always working but it seems like it's never enough because they always had problems with the bills, Soobin parents even helped them once, that's why Kai works, he needs to help his parents, his older sister also works.

The tall bunny-like boy knocked at the door only to be welcomed by Huening Kai's shocked little sister. "Binnie ? What are you doing here?" She asked, her sweet voice warming Soobin up. "Hyuka and I planned to have a sleep over tonight. He didn't tell you?" Soobin replied, raising a single eyebrow. "Uh- No. Are you sure of the date ?" The girl named Bahiyyih asked, she was seemingly embarrassed but Soobin had no idea why. "Yeah... Look at this!" He showed her the text that Kai sent him two weeks ago to invite him.

Bahiyyih frowned but still answered him "Well then you can enter I guess... I didn't know that Kai invited another person to your sleepover" The last part was more a whisper and it goes unnoticed by Soobin yet the said boy saw a thing that made his heart stop for a second. On the floor, a skateboard with a black deck with funky patterns on it and yellow wheels. 'Shit shit shit I'm just dreaming, I'm fucking crazy-'

Before he could move or speak, he heard two laughs . One he recognized as to be Kai's and an unknown one. He tensed up, Hyuka was not alone.

"Oh my ! Soobinnie baby you're here !" Another girl nearly screamed, making the two laughs stop instantly. "Come in your Noona arms! You grew up so much you're so tall!" She exclaimed again, hugging the emotionless boy tightly, almost squeezing him to death.

Two different person's footsteps could be heard, they were coming in Soobin's and the girl -Lea- direction. "Hyuka didn't tell me that you'll be here" she mumbled in the hug while Soobin stayed silent. After a couple of seconds, the tall boy saw Huening Kai and Taehyun stare at him. 'What the fucking hell' Soobin thought, staring back at them. "Lea let me go" Soobin tried to say with his most sweet voice but it came out harsh, leaving Lea shocked. Never Soobin was mean with anyone what goes into him ?