Fighting Bleeding Losing | Yeongyu / Beomjun

Beomgyu

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hen Beomgyu entered in his door, he directly felt that something was odd, different. He had been out with Soobin and Changmin the whole day and left Yeonjun alone in the dorm.

Beomgyu walked to the living room, a strong scent was emitting from the said room.

Surprisingly, the room was empty but there was a bottle on the table, a bottle of what looked like whiskey. As he was observing the room, Beomgyu felt a harsh grip on one of his wrists.

He jumped and nearly screamed. "Beommie~" Yeonjun's voice made Beomgyu flinch again. "Yeonjun let go of my wrist" Beomgyu demanded. He fastly understood that Yeonjun had been drinking and smoking, he knew this smell by heart now.

Honestly, it hurts him because he thought that Yeonjun wasn't doing that kind of things anymore, he thought he helped him to get better. But no, Yeonjun hasn't changed, he fell into hell again.

Yeonjun forcefully turned Beomgyu around, making the boy face him, yet, his hold on Beomgyu's wrist stayed tight and strong. Yeonjun leaned and tried to kiss Beomgyu but the younger boy only pushed Yeonjun away. "Beomgyu... I don't have much patience. You don't want to see me real mad." The taller boy warned as he grabbed roughly both of Beomgyu's wrists. "Just a kiss... please, just one." Yeonjun pleaded, in total contrast with the harsh tone he used before.

Beomgyu felt bad for refusing Yeonjun's kisses so he leaned forward the latter and softly kissed him. Yes, he kissed him because he was pitying him but that's what boyfriends are supposed to do. Right ?

When the younger tried to pull away, he felt Yeonjun's hand maintaining him as he was deepening the kiss. The older roughly bit Beomgyu's lips, making the latter wince in pain. After few seconds Yeonjun pulled away. "Did you drink and smoke today?" Beomgyu asked after taking a couple of steps back. "Sorry" Yeonjun replied, indirectly assuming that he had been drinking and getting high. "It's just so hard, understand me Beomgyu." The older boy sat on the couch, his head hanging low.

"I understand Yeonjun." Beomgyu sighed, he couldn't lose Yeonjun, the latter was important to him. Then, the younger of the two walked to the table and nonchalantly grabbed the whiskey bottle. "Beomgyu don't drink." Yeonjun warned but the younger still opened the bottle and brought it to his mouth. Before he could drink, Yeonjun spoke again. "I don't want you to be like me"

Beomgyu paused. "What do you mean?" He asked as he slowly put the bottle back on the table without even tasting the liquor. "Look at me Beomgyu. I'm such a fucking loser. I drink and use drugs so I can feel less the pain, I can even assume my sexuality because I'm scared. I play with girls, I don't have any real friends, a have a shitty reputation. I'm good at nothing. I can't love you properly, I have no talents. I can't even die. I tried two fucking times but I can't even kill mys-" Hot tears rolled down Yeonjun's rosy cheeks and before he could finish his sentence, his roommate stopped him by hugging him tightly, he was now sat on Yeonjun's lap as his arms were around the latter's torso.

Beomgyu couldn't help sobbing, behind Yeonjun's rough shell, there was just a small and weak boy. Yeonjun needed help, and Beomgyu was sure he could help him. "Yeonjun... In my eyes you're perfect. You lived tough things and you're broken, left in millions of shattered pieces. But I'll help you gather all the pieces and stick them together. And if you lost some pieces, I'll give you mine." The younger gently spoke as he rubbed his roommate's back.

But Beomgyu's speech only made Yeonjun cry harder. Beomgyu embraced the older so tightly that the latter had trouble breathing. "You're squeezing me, baby" Yeonjun giggled as he tried to push Beomgyu but the younger one only squeezed his roommate tighter. "Yeonjun I like you so much... I can't lose you" Beomgyu whispered, burying his face into Yeonjun's neck.

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"Beommie" Yeonjun called, softly caressing his boyfriend's side. After what happened earlier, they chose to take a nap together so now, they were cuddling on the bed. The two had fallen asleep some hour ago but Yeonjun woke up.

He snuggled closer to his sleeping boyfriend. Yeonjun took some time to look at his roommate, his pale legs were tangled with Yeonjun's, his thin arms around Yeonjun's torso, squeezing the older boy. Then Yeonjun's eyes drifted to Beomgyu's collarbone, so soft yet covered with red and purple marks that Yeonjun left there.

The older boy's eyes made their way to Beomgyu's face. God, he loved his gentle features. His mouth was slightly open as he was sleeping, his small and button nose made Yeonjun want to kiss him again and again, and, Beomgyu's eyes, he loved Beomgyu's eyes so much.

Gently, he let his fingers caress Beomgyu's hair. "So cute my Beommie. Mine..." he whispered as his lips found Beomgyu's neck, he gently kissed and nibbled the boy's skin.

Yeonjun knew Beomgyu had woken up when the boy groaned. "Yeonjun?" The sleepy boy whined. "What's up doll?" The older answered, licking the marks he left on Beomgyu's throat. "What are you doing?" Beomgyu giggled, Yeonjun's tongue was tickling his skin. "Attacking you... with kisses !" Yeonjun exclaimed before jumping on top of Beomgyu and kissing every inch of the boy's face and neck.

Beomgyu couldn't stop laughing, he tried to kick Yeonjun out of him but the older was a way stronger than him.

That's only when Beomgyu couldn't breathe that Yeonjun finally stopped and let himself lie on top of his roommate. "You're heavy" Beomgyu sighed. "I don't care... Wanna cuddle." Yeonjun whined as he observed his almost-boyfriend, the latter had a pout on his face. "We cuddled for like... three hours Yeonjun" Beomgyu raised a single eyebrow.

"You're going to refuse my cuddles ?" Yeonjun acted as if he was angry. "Hmm... Yes" Beomgyu teased but his older roommate only bit his shoulder as an answer. "Ouch!" The younger whined and slapped Yeonjun's shoulder.

Beomgyu loved this moment, he didn't want this to end. He just knew he loved Yeonjun. And he thought the feeling was reciprocated.

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