Fearless

You cannot walk out of a war unscathed. Kai is the war I am willing to crawl into, even if it means being tormented by a hundred arrows to my body, a million soldiers to kill me, no peace upon me.

The scars engraved on my back will never go, a reminder of what Kai and I had before his duty concluded. He's saved me countless times.

But now I hate him. I have to. Resentment is the only other thing I can think of other than desire, desiring Kai. I am Kitt's queen it is my job to love him, not his brother.

I feel like a bird trapped in a cage, one that makes me want to scream in agony, shatter pieces of me just to escape, yet I am someone with no choice other than to obey The King.

"My love, I am gonna ship things from the armory to Izram, it's gonna form a good relationship between us two kingdoms." Kitt's voice echoes down the hall as he brushed a strand of hair away from my face.

"Okay, who are gonna be on the ship?" I ask curiously. "Kai and some other imperials, and of course, a captain to sail." Kitt chuckled at the question.

I nod, almost imperceptibly. Kitt walked away and went to our chamber. I have a plan in mind. A very terrible one.

This might-no, will definitely put the kingdom to chaos. It's either my freedom or my loyalty to the kingdom. At my deep thought, I crashed to a post. A real one this time, not a cocky bastard.

"Still as clumsy as ever huh?" Someone familiar chuckled. That cocky bastard.

"It's almost evening, why are you here?" My voice is annoyed, just like how I am.

"You first. Why should a queen like you be here?" Kai's voice sounds angry but it sounds more of worry.

"I'm taking a stroll? Can't you see?" I roll my eyes at him, oh only if I had my dagger.

"Oh sorry for being stupid. I'm actually gonna go to my imperial to check on the package we're gonna send to Izram." The cocky bastard sarcastically said.

"Well then, go. I'm not gonna waste my precious time with you anymore." I jabbed a finger to his chest, pushing him away.

"Oh, poor me. I thought you were eager to see me too, Darling." Kai chuckled darkly.

God, I hate how I always want to crawl into his arms, he still smells the same. He still smells strongly of pine, bergamot and leather. It's rather comforting despite our status now.

"You look as if you want to devour me. It's scary." Kai's dark chuckle diverted me from my thoughts. He can never know that I still think of him, I can't think of him. Me and Kitt are married.

"I'm afraid this conversation has come to an end. You may leave me alone now." I really tried. But my voice sounded flustered.

Kai walked away from me, putting his hand in his trousers. I walk back to my chamber where my dagger resides, noting to myself: bring this the next time I see Kai.

I slip out of my very uncomfortable gown and sighed at the warmth the water brings as I slowly slide in the tub. I love my evening baths. It's pretty much only thing I truly love in this palace.

After bathing, I slip into a cotton nightgown. Kitt is definitely still in his study, he'd be in bed if he wasn't there.

Sleep suddenly became very alluring and my breathing evened out. This day has been too long and I'm not gonna wait for Kitt to sleep beside me anymore.