indescribable ? lafayette x reader

and so, lafayette leaves, but it's fine, it's not like y/n needs him, it's not like she's hurt or something.

what made it worse was the reasons she had heard from alexander and hercules.

"oh yeah, I almost forgot that laf had a fiancee on france"

"what was her name again? laf talks about her a lot, well, not by name, but he mentioned the name once."

"I think it's adrienne"

adrienne.

lafayette had told her about adrienne, she had merely mistook adrienne for a sister.

she was a stupid, stupid girl, lafayette didn't love her.

he was using her, she was an idiot—

("je t'aime ma chérie")

lies. lies. lies.

she slept with him.

she slept with a man engaged to another woman.

she was dirty, filthy, so wrong.

she....

she loved him.

and that was wrong.

it was as wrong as the letter in front of her.

wrong wrong wrong!

on tuesday the twenty-seventh, lieutenant colonel john laurens was killed in a gunfight against british troops on south carolina, these troops have not yet received word from yorktown that the war was over, as you know, lieutenant colonel john laurens dreamed of freeing and emancipating the first all black military regiment, the remaining members of that regiment have been returned to their masters

no....