UNREQUITED LOVE-THE UNSTRECHED STRINGS OF TWO HEARTS ??

30.JUST FRIENDS

He pecked my forehead and wiped my tears with his own hands and for a change I saw his eyes as cold as it could be, showing no emotions all of a sudden.
When I actually relaxed I thought his words "I didn't knew you too were alone." What did he meant by I too? What is he hiding? Why has his eyes became cold all of a sudden? I thought he wasn't alone in these years, She was there for her always na then why did he said that and why Baba doesn't talk to him. Am I the reason for this?
I saw him looking straight and holding the steering wheel so tightly that even his knuckles became white and I saw his bandage getting red. Oh my God his hold is too tight that it's only hurting him but what shocked me was that he wasn't even realising it.

Sana(murmuring): Fuck it..

I held his hand in mine and caressed his wound and tears again brimmed in my eyes. Whatever happens I know I can't see him in pain although if it means destroying myself again. If he is getting disturbed because of me then I am not ready for it. I can again listen to all those things but I can't let him loose himself like this. He is way too precious than he himself knows.

Sana: Sidharth andar chalo this needs to be treated again.
Sid: Kis haq se Shehnaaz?

I didn't expected him to ask this question and honestly I didn't even had the answer.

Sana: Pta nhi Sidharth aur honestly speaking I'm actually tired by running away.

He looked at me with so much of hope in his eyes but I can't just forgot whatever had happened and more importantly I can't give him those hopes which I'm not capable of meeting. So I just spoke whatever came in my mind at first.

Sana: Let us both start afresh Sidharth and for that will you like to become my friend again and this time just a friend? And tumhare question ka answer I just can't forget anything not even a single thing so are you still interested in starting afresh Sidharth?

I asked hoping that this would atleast help us to live our lives happily because I can somewhere feel that he is as broken as me.

Sid: Dost toh tum meri kabhi nhi ban sakti meri jaan aur yeh toh tum bhi bahut ache se jaanti ho but I definitely wanna start afresh, so I will accept this offer of friendship.

He gave me a small smile but that smile was not genuine and I could feel his eyes getting moist.

Sana: Chalo ab andar.
Sid: But main andar kaise I mean....
Sana: I too stayed at your home yesterday Sidharth, I don't wanna force you but I'm requesting please come inside Sidharth and Don't worry Amira di isn't at home leave par gayi hai so...
Sid: But Shehnaaz itne saalon baad I mean this place....
Sana: theek hai na purani baate hai tum toh bhool chuke ho sab kuch toh how does it matter to you aur mera main dekh lungi don't worry.
Sid: Shehnaaz listen.....
Sana: Sidharth infection ho jaayegi na baba we need to clean this wound.
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Sidharth's PoV
I was sitting in Shehnaaz's room after she dressed my wound.
I was thinking of her breakdown in the car and of the fact that she wasn't in touch with anyone from my family too. I was happy these years that atleast she have someone who will care for her, I knew she won't share anything with anyone but what I didn't expected was for her to cut all the ties with everyone related to me. Why didn't Maa Baba told me that she wasn't in touch with them even when I asked so many times.
I was lost in my thoughts when I heard Shehnaaz shouting my name.

Sana: Sidharth kahan kho jaate ho?
Sid: I'm sorry voh main kisi ke baare main soch raha tha.
Sana(hurt in her eyes): Kisi ke baare mai ya Kiran ke baare main Sidharth?
Sid: Shehnaaz....
Sana(avoiding eye contact): Are you stressing on what are you gonna tell her about me, so please don't because I'm not the one to come in between anyone and ... I'm just a friend Sidharth so tell her she doesn't need to...
Before she could complete her sentence I pinned her to the wall with my hands holding her shoulders and her eyes seemed that she is going to cry any moment. Why do you bring Kiran in between Shehnaaz if that hurts you? I thought.
Sana: Sidh.. Sidharth kya ..kar rahe ho chodo mujhe....it's hurting.
Sid: And joh tum bol rahi thi Shehnaaz do you think that doesn't affect you?
Sana: N..No it doesn't

The way she is stammering I know she is still affected by me, maybe she still loves me but whatever I have done I know she should never forgive me but I'm too selfish to leave her now.

Sana(in mind): Y do I feel that you are really sorry for the past Sidharth Even after all this I am not able to hate you, why are you still affecting me? I will never forgive you Sidharth because I told you a hundred times that I don't connect to people with heart because it hurts when they leave and still you did the same thing. The pain I saw in your eyes today was enough to give you a chance but I can't forgive you.

I saw Sana staring directly in my eyes without blinking but she was lost in her thoughts. I am not able to read her eyes why has she become so cold?

Her eyes which were like an open book are so emotionless now.

Your eyes holds everything
My soul thirsts for
Everyday they make me Fall
for you more and more.

Sana: Tumne bola kuch...
Sid:N..Nhi .....
Sana: What did I heard then anyways Sidharth chodo. .
Sid: Tum Kiran ka naam nhi logi Shehnaaz.
Sana: Kyun Sidharth is she still that important that you wanna keep her out of everything.
Sid: Aisa nhi hai sweetheart I just don't wanna hurt you.
Sana: You won't Sidharth because "normal friends" don't affects each other.
Sid: Sana baby she isn't important for me, infact she is a no one for me...

Sana: And so am I Sidharth. U know what there was a time when...

You got in my heart without
Even Trying
And I let you in without
Even realising

But now I won't let the history repeat itself because I know I will be there whenever you feel like but we will just stay friends nothing else Sidharth.

With this she pushed me with all her strength and was about to go when I shouted what I wrote for her years back but never told her...

Your eyes tell me Shehnaaz
you will Love me everyday
No matter what happens, besides me
You will always stay

With this I left the room before she could to get some piece of mind so that I don't say anything about this just friends tag because it was me who accepted it.

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