UNREQUITED LOVE-THE UNSTRECHED STRINGS OF TWO HEARTS ??

Shehnaaz went upstairs to her room where she had not visited in past years unless and until she definitely has to. This room had all those moments she spent with some special persons of her life to cherish forever but now she wants to get rid of them.
She remembers her mother saying:
"The best way to move on in life is to forget and forgive. The more u holds on to ur past the more it will affect u and nothing in the world is that great that it should affect your present."
"If and only if u forgot ur past then only u can live in present and will be able to make ur future memorable."

She has taken firm decision to move on in her life, about forgiving him she does not know if she holds that power or not but she has made a firm mind not to punish him and herself because the fact even today is she is not over him but the person who left her all vulnerable back then is he capable of spoiling her whole life????

Her mind screamed: No he is not. U should forget him and move on.

But her heart conflicted: u need to move on but this doesn't mean u need to forget him.

Mind: Y not that person doesn't deserve to be part of her memories.

Heart: that u can't change he already is and forgiving does not means forgetting.

Before her mind and heart could argue further she made her mind to listen to her mind as she cannot suffer by listening to her heart. She knows that it's going to be difficult to forget him but she will as she cannot make her parents suffer when they are not at fault. They don't deserve what they r feeling right now for sure. She needs to be firm and move on as it's already years she has been holding back.

She took her steps towards the drawer in her closet that she mostly kept locked. After taking out the key she opened the drawer to find so many memories of her past. She felt as if she is feeling emotions other than pain and hurt for the first time in years and then she saw her diary her only friend who witnessed every moment of her life. She took out her diary and opened it as she needs to live her life again one last time before she forgets her pain and past.

(She loves to write diary on a daily basis but has not written from past 6 years)

She remembered that it was her first day in class 1 when her father bought her the first diary of her life and has asked to write everything in this and even those things which she could not share with them. From then diaries have become her best friends and and she writes every detail of her life in these diaries but she stopped writing it as she could not gather Herself after that dreadful day. This was the second last diary she wrote and the first one to witness that phase of her life which made her emotionless and the phase which changed her from old sana to a new Sana she hardly recognises.

She took a deep breath and opened her diary. The name Shehnaaz Gupta gave her a different sense of pride she yearned to feel from these years as now she was only addressed as Sana.

(Diary)
Page 1
Hi Diary. I am Shehnaaz. A wonderful person ok ok just kidding likewise u know me but as u r new one let me introduce u myself.
So yeah right now I m 16 years old drawing, painting, music, dancing, and studying r my hobbies and writing diaries my passion. Study is my foremost hobby like I love it very much, reason is as simple as it could be I need to fulfill all of the dreams my parents see for me and by studying different books I feel contented because books are my best friends.
I know I m suffocating u from my talks but this was necessary for u to know me as I can only talk to u this much as I am very introvert when I m outside my house because I can't trust people so easily.

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(What those days were now I hardly remember when was I last time this happy in my life. )
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Page 2
Dated: 1 April 2012
Today was the first day of my new school as my mother got a home posting after years. Everything was fine but I was nervous as I could not adjust in a new place so suddenly. I need time for making even friends. How I m going to deal with the new surroundings. With this thought I went to school but nothing was such as I thought. Everyone were so friendly but I didn't talk much as that was not my nature. The best part was studies and the teachers, they were so good and cooperative that I didn't felt as my first day.
Don't think I didn't talked with anyone. I talked to only two people those who give me positive vibes and they became my friends here in the school on very first day they were extremely nice
*Shanaya Singh
*Krish Sandhu

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These names gave me a smile which I felt was broken 6 years ago.
I checked time and I saw it was already 7 in the morning. I was so busy in reading my diary that I didn't know how time flew and I didn't even slept so I decided to get ready and help my mother in work
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was feeling very light after I decided to move on finally, holding back will only give me pain so I decided to be happy or at least try it for myself now..
I went towards kitchen after getting ready in my favourite colour after years, I know mom will be the happiest to see me all fine and genuinely happy after years. I know mom knows that something is wrong but she pretends everything is fine just for my sake and she never force me to tell her anything.
When I entered the kitchen mom saw me and gave me the most heartwarming smile. I strolled towards her with a warm smile.
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To be continued.........
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