UNREQUITED LOVE-THE UNSTRECHED STRINGS OF TWO HEARTS ??

I was busy in reading my diary when I heard Aliya Maa calling me breaking me out of my thoughts.
Aliya: Naaz....
Sana: Ji Maa...
Aliya: Raatke 3:30 ho rahe hai bacha, Abhi tak kyun jag rahi ho?
Sana: Bas aise hi Maa Neend nhi aa rahi thi.
Aliya: Kya haal kar liya hai tumne Sana, aise kaise chalega bacha.
Sana: Kuch nhi hua hai mujhe aap please tension mat lo, I m fine.
Aliya: tumhe pta hai Aaj bhi jhoot nhi aata tumhe bolna.
Sana: Jhoot nhi bol rahi Maa mujhe sahi main neend nahi aa rahi aap sojaiye please.
Aliya:Theek hai nahi Sona na tumne koi baat nhi main bhi idhar hi baith kar dekhungi tum kya pad rahi ho.
Sana: Are par aapki health....
Aliya: Kuch nhi bacha, ab beti Ziddi ho toh Maa ko toh uski zid puri karni padti hai na.... toh bus phir bethte hai aise hi.
Sana: Aap bahut Zyada Ziddi ho gayi hai maa
Aliya: Ab aapka kuch toh asar padega na aakhir itna purana aur gehra rishta jo hai....

I was all silent now, itna purana aur gehra rishta jiski vajah se tha voh toh mera nhi hai na, toh rishta kaisa?

Aliya: Sana bacha aise chup ho jaogi toh kaise chalega. Jo bhi baat man main aaye voh bol do beta, khud ke ander kitna kuch rakhogi?
Sana: Maa jiski vajah se yeh purana rishta tha voh toh mera kabhi tha hi nhi toh yeh humara rishta.....
Aliya: Naaz bacha tum aisa kyun ho gyi, hume chahe jisne bhi jab bhi milvaya ho tum meri beti ho aur yeh baat maine kabhi kisi ko bhi bhulne nhi di.
Sana: Maa kya voh....
Aliya: Nhi Sana jis baat se taklif ho usse bhula dena chahiye bacha, itna sochkar kyun tum apne aap ko taklif de rahi ho.
Sana: Nhi hota hai maa, thak gyi hoon ab main.
Aliya: Nhi bacha aisa nhi bolte, abhi chalo sojao.
Sana: Ji.

Aliya's Pov.
Kitna koshish karti hai yeh bachi ki ekdum thik rahe, khush rahe aur kabhi kisi ko kuch nhi batati par kitni tut chuki hai ye andar se samajh sakti hoon main, Sidharth Raj sahi keh rahe the iss baat ke liye hum kabhi tumko maaf nhi kar payenge, kyun tod diya tumne itni pyaari bachi ko, kya hua tha uss raat joh tumne humse hamari beti ko dur kar diya Sidharth.
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Last night I slept so peacefully in Maa's embrace, Now I wonder should I tell everything to my parents too. Maa ko dekhkar samajh aaya hai that I have been neglecting my own parents, apna pain chupane main have I distanced myself from them?
After having breakfast we went to Office to officially start the project. I asked Maa about the other designer but her response was so confusing.
Sana: Maa who's the person with whom I have to design the project?
Aliya: Naaz listen to me calmly whoever it will be remember this is a way to fulfill your dreams, don't back out who ever it will be.
Sana: Maa I'm feeling tensed now, who is the other designer?
Before she could answer something Rachit called me so I excused and went from there.
Sana: Yes Rachit bulaya tumne?
Rachit: Haan, all ready?
Sana: Yes.
Rachit: Nervous ho?
Sana: Nervous nhi it's just a different feeling maybe like anxiety or something I don't know.
Rachit: Relax Karo Sana, u are one of the best employees we have. I know u can complete the project with excellence.
Sana: I just hope so.
Rachit: Shehnaaz just give your best as I have heard Mrs & Mr. Arora are quite professional when it comes to their works.
Sana: I know Rachit.
Rachit: Great then All the best.
Sana: Thanks.

I was not worried about the project but it was like something is going to happen, may be not bad but something which will change my life, like a missing piece that was lost years ago and is found suddenly, I was worried that why am I feeling restless of a sudden? What's going to happen?
I was lost in my thoughts when someone informed me that everyone is present in the conference room and the meeting is gonna start so I should join them too.
I got up to move towards the conference room when the restless feeling started increasing, I am wondering what's going to happen and when I entered the conference room I felt whole of my world stopped......
Sidharth ....... I whispered his name without even realising.
There he was standing with Rachit facing his back towards me, I can easily identify him till now. I was shocked for a moment, how could he be here? Was this the reason I was feeling restless from the morning. O God how could I do this project now?
Do I have to face him? I can't..... I seriously can't face him. I need to leave.
Before I could even decide anything, Someone held my hand and brought me out of the conference room.
Sana: Maa why is he back now?
I hugged her and cried silently hoping she would understand.
Aliya: I told you to stay strong bacha, this is your dream Sana u can't let it be broken because of a single person.
Then I realised she said the same words few hours ago too, it meant she too knows about it.
Sana: Why did you hide it Maa? Why?
Aliya: Sana you need to face him bacha.
Sana: I can't Mom, not now at least.
Before Maa could say anything I heard another voice.
Raj: Toh kab Naaz? 6 saal ho gaye bacha ab Bhi nhi toh kab?
Aliya: He is right Naaz, I'm not asking you to talk to him, nor too forgive him or hate him, just think of your career Sana. U can't spoil your entire life behind anyone.
Raj: Naaz I want my fearless, happy, life ko enjoy karne wali Shehnaaz back, I want my Naaz back bacha, I don't even recognise you Shehnaaz, tum itni scared, hurt, dull kabhi nhi thi bacha.
If you like to run away then think that you accepted that whatever your fight was about, whatever he did broke you to such an extent that you don't wanna heal yourself either. Try for us Naaz, try for your parents and most importantly try for yourself Shehnaaz. Kab tak bhagogi bacha, show him uske Bina bhi you are as strong as you were back then.