Rubik's Cube (Joshler)

Tyler's POV ~

I was going to tell Josh I really was but I couldn't not after the dream I just had. It wasn't sexual or anything its just in the dream I told Josh and he got pissed and started calling me disgusting names and said he didn't want to be my friend anymore. I know Josh would never actually do that but ever since Josh caught me staring at him blurrys been back. He's not loud but he's there..he's always there.

"JoSh WouLd NeVEr LikE yOu LiKe THat EvEn iF hE waS GAy" as much as I wanted blurry to be wrong he's probably right.(but he is wrong ... If only you knew Tyler) Thats why I couldn't tell Josh that I like him or that I'm gay.... I know I said I wasn't but I've done some more thinking and I'm definitely gay. (lol obviously Tyler) Theres nothing wrong with that tho.

I tried to go back to sleep but I just couldn't so I decided to watch Netflix instead. I scrolled through Netflix til I came across Supernatural (lol thanks for the suggestion Tia[aka my fren])and decided to watch that.

I passed out about 6 episodes in. It was probably around 3am or something.

When my alarm went off I started to regret staying up to watch supernatural because now I'm super tired. I got up to get ready tho. I got dressed, ate, brushed my teeth and texted Josh. It was raining out and I knew he had to walk so I thought I'd pick him up.

Me: Hey Josh want a drive to school?

Josh: yeah sure

Me: cool I'll be there in 10mins

Josh: ok

I hopped in my car and made my way to Josh's house. Once I got there Josh came running out of the house and to the car trying to get out of the rain as quickly as possible.

"Hey" I said kinda awkwardly. I was hopping he forgot about our conversation last night " h-hey...." he trailed off a bit before talking again. "Um so a-about last night..." oh no he remembers

"What about it" I said as if I was completely oblivious to the situation
"Umm are you going t-to tell me what was going on?" he asked as I started to drive away from his house. "What do you mean?" I laughed nervously

"T-tyler you know what I mean." his voice became stern. I looked at him and swallowed harshly. "O-oh that... Um that was nothing"( sure tyler suree)

He just stared at me with a eyebrow raised and a bored expression on his face. "What?" I asked "you keep saying t-that its nothing when its obviously bothering you!" he snapped

"I'm sorry" I said quietly. " no I'm sorry Tyler... F-for snapping ..I'm just really worried about you" he sighed trying to regain himself. " I really want to tell you Josh...." I said as I pulled into a parking spot at the school and parked the car.

"S-so tell me" I took a deep breath then let it back out "i....I can't" he looked at me then looked down at his lap "o-ok" he sounded defeated.

Josh slowly got out of the car and made his way to the door of the school. I followed behind him.

When the bell rang we made our way to band. Josh hasn't said anything since the car. Did I upset him? Maybe he thinks its something he did or that I don't trust him or something. I mean I do trust him. I'm just scared to tell him.

I sat down at the piano and watched as Josh sat down at the drums. He looked up and briefly made eye contact with me before he looked away and concentrated on a piece of sheet music that lay on the stand.