"y/n?"
"go away mom"
"honey"
"no i'm sad leave me alone"
"you need to get up and do something, it'll cheer you up"
"I don't want to"
Zach had just let me know that he couldn't get a flight back home for two more weeks. I was missing him so much, I haven't seen him 3 months, not once. Every time we tried life kept getting in the way, ruining everything. I needed him rightnow more than ever, I'm sick and I feel gross and self conscious. I haven't felt self conscious since I started dating Zach two years ago now.
My mom just looked at me and I broke down, I started sobbing and hyperventilating. She tried calming me down as much as possible but it was just getting worse.
"take a deep breath, calm down"
She grabbed her phone and went into my bathroom.
Zach p.o.v.
I was sat my hotel room just thinking when my phone rang, I looked over and saw y/n's mom calling me. I grabbed my phone answering right away.
"Hello? y/m/n?"
"Hello Zach I need your help"
"of course"
"y/n is not doing good, I think she's having a panic attack and I can't calm her down"
"oh god give her the phone please"
my heart broke when I heard her sobs and her trying to breath. It almost made me cry.
y/n p.o.v.
My mom gave me her phone and walked out the room, I wiped my eyes to see who it was. I saw his name but continued crying.
"Love, you're okay, i'm here"
"Zach!"
I sobbed
"baby breathe...i'm here with you, you're safe"
he talked to me for a few minutes before I calmed down, finally it was just light sniffles.
"I'm so sorry"
"Love don't say sorry, it's not your fault"
"I want you here so bad"
"me too baby, I miss you but I promise I'll be home soon"
"I feel so horrible"
"take a deep breath love, I promise it will get better"
"okay...can you stay for a bit"
"of course love, however long you want"
"thank you"
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It was a few days later, I still wasn't feeling too great. My mom got me to come downstairs and eat something to make me feel better. I had taken a shower and washed my hair for the first time in a while and it did make me feel better. I also changed into a clean hoodie and sweatpants, it was one of Zach's many hoodies he had left for me.
My mom had gone out to do some grocery shopping when the doorbell rang, I didn't even think about the fact that my mom had a key before opening the door.
"hey mom"
I said looking at something on my phone and walking back to the kitchen, she didn't say anything after a few seconds so I turned around. I jumped when I saw Zach leaning against the door with a smile on his face.
I covered my face as the tears spilled out of my eyes. I heard his chuckle as his arms wrapped around me.
"hi baby"
he said kissing my head, I wrapped my arms around his neck and my head in the crook of his neck.
"omg"
I said looking up at him, he wiped my tears smiling, I grabbed his face and kissed him. He picked me up squeezing me tight making me laugh.
"I missed you so much"
"I missed you even more love but I'm here now"
I pulled back and kissed him again, he left sweet kisses all of my face. We went up and sat on my bed talking about everything. We ended up cuddling as we chatted.
"how've you been feeling since you started the medication?"
"a tiny but better, but doctor basically told me to prioritise basic self care...but that's been difficult"
he rubbed my thigh and kissed my forehead, I took his hand off of my leg, he looked down and back up at me.
"what's wrong?"
"I just...i'm not in the best shape and I gained weight, I need to work ou-"
"don't even go there, you look absolutely perfect, you're gorgeous"
I hugged him hiding my face in his chest, he kissed my head making me feel better. It took some time for me to feel normal again but he's there for me every step of the way which I couldn't be more thankful for.
