Sitting outside, sipping on my coffee, looking out at the quiet world in the morning air has become my favorite thing. Jack, my husband and I have recently moved into our new house and we've been taking things slow. I started developing some anxiety a few months back and so we both talked and decided to take a step back from life and take a break.
Jack walked out onto our balcony with his mug in hand. He rubbed my head gently before sitting down next to me. I leaned into his side as he lifted his arm around me.
I looked up and kissed his jaw softly, he looked down and kissed me.
"you ok?"
"i'm a lot better now that we're here, thank you"
"of course, I just wanted you to feel good again"
I smiled hugging him. We stayed like that for a bit before getting up and getting ready. I had rearranged my schedule with my boss so that I could work from home for a bit. Jack and the band are on a break so he's at home with me.
After a few hours of working I took a break and went upstairs to Jack's studio. He was playing with some chords before looking up at me.
"hey baby"
"hi"
I sat on his lap and hugged him, he chuckled hugging me back tightly. I pulled back leaning against his desk as we chatted for a bit, he took my hands and kissed them.
"Jack"
"yeah"
"I wanna have a baby"
he smiled
"really?"
"yeah...do you not?"
"no of course I do, I'd love to, this just comes a bit randomly"
"well i've been thinking about it more seriously since we've been here, I mean we both have stable jobs, and I could see us raising a kid here...but I understand if you would rather focus on music"
"you're right, no i wouldn't rather do music. If we're doing this it's all i'm gonna do"
"are you sure you want to do that"
"of course, you and starting a family is so much more important and appealing to me. I'm ready if you are"
I smiled and kissed him softly
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Today was the day of our baby shower, i'm now 7 months pregnant, I wasn't sure if it was gonna happen because I felt a bit sick but I thought seeing my family and friends would cheer me up.
I'd gotten an outfit in which I felt a bit better, my confidence had taken a knock but I was trying my best to stay positive and i'm lucky to have Jacks who's literally been the best and most supportive person.
He walked into our room to tell me the first few people had showed up. I was in the bathroom putting on some makeup, he came in and kissed my cheek.
"hey babes, people are starting to show up"
"ok, give me a minute"
"yes of course are you ok?"
"yeah, just a small headache but it's fine"
he hugged me rubbing my back, I took his hand and we went downstairs. I said hi to everyone individually, they all were so excited and happy for us. After I'd talked to everyone I found Jack again who was talking to his mom. I touched his hand leaning my head on his shoulder, he put his arm around me.
"sorry for interrupting"
"no absolutely not, how are you feeling?"
Kerie asked
"just normal pregnancy things I guess, excited...scared"
"aw that's normal, you'll be okay, this is so exciting!"
I smiled looking at Jack, he smiled back at me, reassuring me.
"you wanna sit down for a bit"
"yeah, my back hurts"
we sat down on the couches and talked to some more people. We took pictures and people left after giving us gifts, I told Jack I was feeling a bit sick. He helped me up and ran me a bath, he sat with me and made me feel better.
"I wish I could take all your pain away and make you feel better"
"you're keeping me sane love, you do so much already. Just talk and I'll feel better"
he chuckled and kissed my cheek.
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2 months later
I woke up due to a sharp pain in my back, I looked over and saw the clock, 4 am. I took a deep breath but was cute off by a sharp pain in my abdomen.
I shook Jacks arm to wake him up, he looked over and immediately woke up when he saw the state of me.
"woah what's wrong?"
"Shit, I think i'm having a contraction"
"oh god oh god ok you're ok, breathe"
he said pulling my hair out of my face and pulling the blanket off. A few seconds later it was over, I held onto his arm breathing deeply.
"you can do it babes, i'll call everyone"
He grabbed his phone and called mine and his parents. We thought we had time to get to the hospital but we didn't know how short my labor would be.
"Jack I don't think i'll make it to the hospital"
"oh shit ok i'll call an ambulance"
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An hour later she was finally there, we where laid on the couch with her on my chest.
"well that didn't go as planned"
my mom said making us smile, the nurse checked me again to make sure everything was fine.
"well congratulations, you're completely fine and so is baby"
"that's so amazing"
Kerie said, I looked at Jack who was smiling at her.
"you ok?"
"more than, i'm so happy, thank you so much"
he said and kissed me, our parents hugged us sweetly making us smile even more. This is life now and i'm so excited.
