I got to the studio realising I was the first one there. I decided to lay down on the couch and and sleep a bit since I've barely slept in the past 24 hours and I don't handle not sleeping well at all. Jack was up all night playing video games with whoever. I knew he liked it and it was relaxing to him somehow so I didn't say anything.
I was at the studio because the guys had asked me if I could record some vocals for them, I'm not a singer but they all liked my voice a lot and thought it would fit well.
I heard footsteps outside the door so I sat up on the couch, the guys and producer came in as I rubbed my eyes.
"y/n!"
the guys hugged me, Jack did too kissing me sweetly. He let me go and looked at me making him frown.
"you okay?"
"yeah i'm fine"
"you sure?"
"yeah yeah school was a bit tiring but it's okay"
he nodded hesitantly, we waited until the producer got everything ready. It was going last so I had to wait quite a while, I tried to nap but it didn't really work.
Once it was my time to record some of the guys had left so it was just Jack and the producer. I went into the recording booth and put on the headphones. I warmed up a bit and sang softly trying to wake up my voice. I felt like I was gonna pass out but I was determined to get this done.
My biggest flaw is trying to do everything in my power to not disappoint or not be an inconvenience, I don't care if it hurts me I just don't want to be the problem or the cause of a problem.
We tried the official first take and it was utter crap
"shit i'm sorry"
"it's okay that wasn't bad we're gonna try again, try to..."
the producer went on but I couldn't really focus on what he was saying, Jack was staring at me with a worried look on his face. I blindly nodded acting as if I actually listened to what he said. I tried again, it was a bit better but still sucked.
Jack p.o.v.
I was paying close attention to y/n, she was having some trouble and I could tell. Her shoulders were low and her hands were kind of shaking.
"I don't think she's okay"
"yeah she seems off"
I told him to take a break, he nodded and I went into the booth.
"hey what's wrong?"
"i'm okay"
"no you're not I can tell"
then I saw the tears on her face
"hey it's okay"
I pulled her into my arms rubbing her head. I whispered to her knowing it calmed her down.
"you're okay i'm here"
"can we just get this done I don't wanna let you and the guys down"
"what? love this song isn't coming out anytime soon we have plenty of time to come back, if today isn't your day that's totally fine"
"but I already wasted his time I don't want it to be for nothing"
"love listen to yourself, you're not disappointing anyone. We can go home and just chill, I love you cmon"
I kissed her cheek, I looked up at the producer miming to him we were done. I took her hand and walked back, I told him we had to go home. He was very understanding and told y/n it was completely okay.
I grabbed her stuff and went to my car, during the car ride she was silent yawning from time to time.
"are you tired?"
"a bit"
"I can tell it's more than just a bit love"
"I couldn't sleep last night"
I looked at her quickly before looking back at the road.
"was it because I was playing?"
"...yeah but it's okay if it makes you happy-"
"no no no, I'm sorry, I didn't realise it was keeping you awake, I won't play at night anymore"
"no please no don't change because of me"
then I realised what was happening, she told me a few months ago show she's heavily weighed down about the feeling of being a disruption and I could tell it was coming up.
"love it's okay I swear, we're gonna make hot chocolate cuddle and spend all day tomorrow sleeping if you want"
we got home and that's what we did, she got changed as I made the drinks. I went to our room, we chatted and I tried to make her feel better as we drunk our hot chocolats.
I pulled her into my chest gently stroking her hair, she was out in a few minutes, she really needed it. I smiled kissing her temple before closing my eyes and falling asleep myself.
