UNREQUITED LOVE-THE UNSTRECHED STRINGS OF TWO HEARTS ??

19.FIRST MEETING AFTER 6 YEARS

I think he is right, I can't run away from him always kabhi toh face karna hi padega na then why not today, I know difficult hoga but he doesn't need to know that. He will witness the Shehnaaz that was before he met her not what he made her. I wiped my tears and hugged Maa and Baba together.
Sana: Chaliye I'm ready I will not loose myself for anyone now, I will show everyone that I'm still the same.
Aliya: That's like my Sana.
Raj: Remember Naaz, I'm always there for u.
Sana: I know. Let's go unprofessional lagega.
I again entered the conference room but this time with full confidence but his one image makes me so weak but I need to stay strong for myself, for Mom Dad, for Maa Baba and Krish too. He always told me to believe in myself first and then on others. I know it's so difficult to be around him but I need to control my emotions for my dreams.
Rachit: Hey Shehnaaz aagayi tum we have been looking for you from much time now.
Sana: Yeah!! Was stuck somewhere.

When I completed he turned back and for a moment I was again lost in those eyes. I quickly looked away not wanting to get lost in him. His face showed expressions of pure shock as if he was not expecting me to be here but he quickly masked them. My mind screamed that this is what he does always where as my heart conflicted again.
Rachit: Shehnaaz this is Sidharth other designer that's going to assist the project.
I just smiled softly at Rachit.
Sana(taking a deep breath): Hey!!! Sidharth.
He looked at Rachit to ask him something maybe about my name. It hurts has he actually forgot who am I ???
Rachit: O yeah!! Sidharth this is Shehnaaz one of the best employees we have.
Sid: Hi Shehnaaz. Nice to meet you.
Sana(murmured): Hope I could say that about you too.
Sid: Excuse me?
Sana: Ahh..... Nothing.
Raj: So attention everyone let's talk about the meeting we all are here for.
The meeting went on quite well, this was actually a great project for me and my career and that's when I realised that Sidharth should not come in between my dreams from now on, he is my past whom I know I can never forget but I should surely be strong enough to keep myself moving on.
The meeting ended and I was waiting for everyone to leave when Maa-Baba came towards me.
Aliya: Naaz bacha tum theek ho?
Sana: Haan Maa mujhe kuch nhi hua, bahut strong hai aapki beti voh ekdum saamne dekhkar vaisa hua tha but u were right. This project is my dream I cannot ruin it for someone who didn't cared years back.
Raj: Aliya u will stay with her right?
Sana: Nhi Maa meri tarah usko bhi aapki zaroorat hogi, I don't know anything but I still feel usko bhi mere yahan hone ke baare main Kuch nhi pta tha. He too needs you Maa aap uske pass jao main actually theek hooon.
Raj: Nhi Naaz usko kisiki koi zaroorat nhi hai, khud sambhal Lega voh apna, aur tumhe uski fikar karne ki zaroorat nhi hai.
Sana: Baba mujhe nhi pta aap usse gussa kis wajah se lag rahe ho par agar voh vajah main hoon toh please don't, aapko meri vajah se apne bete se dur hone ki zaroorat nhi hai.
Raj: Tum vajah nhi ho Naaz, Aur agar voh beta hai toh tum bhi toh beti ho na hamari .
Sana: Haan baba par voh.....
Aliya: Uske Saath K......
Raj: Uske saath bahut log honge Sana tumhe ab bhi sirf uski fikar hai?
Sana: Meri taraf se toh sab real tha na baba fikar toh hogi hi. Aaj please mere liye aap Uske pass rahiye mujhe pta hai voh kabhi nhi bolega par usko bhi toh aap ki zaroorat hai, main theek hoon aur mujhe akela rehna hai Maa-Baba please.
Aliya: Tum sure ho Naaz ki tum akela rehna chahti ho, kyunki Raj sahi hai Uske pass hai bahut log hai jo Uske saath rahenge.
Sana: Nhi Maa main sure hoon mujhe akele rehna hai aaj, kafi kuch hua hai ekdum, jitna marzi strong rehne ka try karoon sab nahi bhul sakti main ek dum.
Raj: Naaz don't stress yourself out bacha.
Sana: I will not Baba, I should leave you take care of yourself and of him too.
Aliya: Take care Bacha.
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I reached home and Amira kept calling me but I was not in a mood to listen anything so I straight away went to my room and locked it. I was feeling so broken yet so satisfied right now. I saw him this closely after 6 whole years, his presence still gave me a calmness and fills the void which he created 6years back.
Heart: U still care for him Sana.
Mind: So she can't change her nature.
Heart: If it's about her nature then why did you cried when you saw him.
Mind: It wasn't me it was you who became an emotional mess.
I think my mind is right this time, I should control my own feelings for now. I couldn't be the weak, lost and broken Sana in front of him.