Is It Okay if I Call You Mine? (formerly Complicated)

Cassie's POV

We were at Sky Ranch around 8 in the evening. As always, the park was full of people – families, couples, and group of friends. They were all having fun. Blake and I fell in line to ride the ferris wheel. I couldn't help but to think of Jethro. When Sky Ranch was not yet open for public, I once wished that he will be there with me when I try to ride the ferris wheel. He will hold my hand, hugged me tight if I feel scared, kiss me even to make me forget how high our cart is.

Suddenly, from behind, I felt Blake's arms wrapped around me. He brought me closer, kissed my hair, and whispered, "Are you okay?"

Feeling confused, I said, "Yes." softly. I was surprised with Blake's actions but what surprised me more is how my body responded to Blake's touch. My heart beats rapidly. I felt secured feeling his arms around me. Without thinking, I leaned back to Blake and held his hands resting on my stomach. People seeing us would think that we're a couple but I couldn't think right. Thankfully, the ferris wheel has stopped, and it was our turn to get in. We sat facing each other. I regret the "facing my fears" talk I told Blake. Truth be told, I was so afraid. What if the cart was defective? What if it's not screwed properly? Blake interrupted my thoughts.

"Are you okay Cassie?"

"No?" I said softly.

Blake held my hands. When our cart went higher, I closed my eyes. My hands were trembling.

"Damn!" I heard him say before I felt him sat beside me. "Hey, it's okay." he whispered and then he wrapped his arms around me. Once again, all my fears were gone. I felt secured knowing Blake was here with me. Holding my chin, he tilted my head up until our eyes met. Ever heard of the line, "Lost in your eyes"? That's exactly how I felt. I got lost in Blake's eyes. It's only me and him... lost in our own world. When I felt his lips on mine, it seems that the world stops revolving. I couldn't help but to kiss back. I love the way his lips fit perfectly into mine, it's like showing me that it is meant to be. Yes, Jethro's kisses were good, but Blake's??? It was perfect... I was not aware of what's happening outside our cart. All I care about is Blake.

The ferris wheel stopped. It was the same time I've thought of Aubrey... my bestfriend... Blake's girlfriend... I couldn't help the bile rising through my throat. As soon as the attendant opened the cart door, I rushed to the nearest trash can. All the food I ate went out of my mouth. I went to the restroom to fix myself. I saw how pale I was when I looked in the mirror. I was not nauseous because of the ride. I was feeling terrible because I betrayed my bestfriend. Not only did I share a kiss with her boyfriend, I even considered him as mine, imagining my world only with him. How could I even think of that? When I got out of the restroom, Blake went near me and was about to hold my hand but I stopped him.

"Blake no."

"Cass, we have to talk."

"No Blake. There is nothing to talk about."

"Please..."

"No. I want to go back to the hotel." I walked to the parking lot, leaving Blake behind me.

When we were in the hotel room, I went to the bathroom to shower. I didn't know how could I face Blake after what happened. I was afraid he will ask me why and I don't know what I will tell him. After an hour, I went out of the bathroom only to realize that Blake was not around. I heard the beep of my phone. It was a message from Aubrey.

Aubrey: Hi girl. How are you and Blake? Are you enjoying your vacation in Tagaytay? Miss you so much. Kiss Blake for me, okay? Lol

"Oh Aubrey, if only you knew that I already did..." I sighed, thinking of what to tell Aubrey. I don't want to lie to her but I know I couldn't tell her the truth. Not this time...

Me: Hi Aubrey. I was thinking of leaving tomorrow. We went to Sky Ranch and it was okay. I think I don't have anything to do here anymore. 'Hope you're doing fine... I miss you too.

I heard the click of our door. Blake is here. I don't know what to tell him. I know we have to talk about what happened somehow. I guess it would be better if we settle this now.

"Cass. I'm sorry."

"Of course Cass, he is sorry for the kiss. What do you expect he will tell you? Maybe he just misses Aubrey... That's it! You were just there to fill in for Aubrey." I told myself. I was hurt but I will not let Blake know it. I smiled and said, "It's okay Blake, do not stress yourself about it."

I went to bed and put two pillows in the middle. "You can sleep on the bed but stay on your side. I tend to move a lot when I sleep, I don't want you to wake up on the floor because I invaded your space. Night."

I heard Blake sighed and said, "Goodnight Cassandra."

Feeling exhausted. I fell asleep.

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