The Element - Loki / Avengers x Reader

Y/N shivered and walked back into her room, closing the balcony door and shutting away the cold breeze.

Lunchtime was nearing so she decided to go back to the kitchen to devour the left over pancakes Steve had made that morning.

Y/N grabbed the pancake stack and popped it into the microwave to warm up for several minutes. She suddenly began to feel extremely light headed.

*Y/N POV*

My head spun. It was like someone had plonked me on a tea cup ride and span me for days. I grabbed my head and tried to focus on my breathing but ended up sitting on the floor when my legs gave way. I tried to stand back up but my legs wouldn't work.

The next thing, I felt a hand on both of my arms picking me up and guiding me to the sofa which I was put on. I rested my elbows on my knees with my head in my hands trying to focus on my breathing.
"Here drink this" I heard a voice say. I took the glass of water and took a few sips before setting it down on the coffee table.
"Thank you" I looked up to see Loki. Had he just helped me ?

He sat down next to me not bothered by the closing space between us and put the back of his hand to my forehead. It was ice cold.

"Hmm you're rather cold" he grabbed a blanket and draped it around my shoulders.
"So are you" I replied.
"Frost giant. I'm always cold" he chuckled. "Feeling any better?" His gaze stayed on me. "Yeah I'm sure I'll be fine" I tried to stand but soon wobbled and landed back on the sofa. "Maybe I need to sit for a bit longer"
"Yes you do. Stubborn little mortal" he said with a flicker of a smile.
"Why do you keep calling me that? I have a name you know" I was fed up of his name calling.
"Because you are a mortal. Just like I am a god." You could see the pride in his face.
"Well just call me Y/N. Why are you helping me ? You weren't too set on doing so last week..." his head tilted and his eyes darted to the floor then back towards you.
"Because maybe I was a little harsh on you last week. My intentions were to help however I can now see how that might have been misinterpreted"
"Misinterpreted!? Loki you nearly had Bruce kill me..." I snapped at him. I could see a slight change in his look which went from apologetic to now irritated. "Well if you weren't so stubborn and just let go you wouldn't have been injured. All I did was make you realise just how powerful you can be. Look what you did, even with that bracelet on your wrist" he picked your armed up reminding you that you were currently powerless. A powerless woman sat next to a powerful god. Crap.
"You say things and they make no sense. You're acting like I should know more about my powers. You know as much as I do and the others. I'll use them when I am ready. On my terms, do you understand?" I was done with his cryptic messages.
"Understood Miss Y/N." He stood and walked over to the window and looked out at the snow filled city. "I am sorry Y/N. I want you to learn. Having powers is a wonderful gift and it's nice that you have people around you that care and want to help you. I never had that. Only my mother who taught me everything I know" his voice lowered and you could feel his pain.

Damn empathy.

"Thank you Loki. I appreciate it. Maybe when I'm feeling better you can show me again. Just slower this time" I said light heartedly. I could see his shoulders move along with his chuckle.
"If you have any questions, I will be happy to answer. I have some texts you can have which explain different powers and their origins. You might find it interesting" several large books appeared on the coffee table in front of you.

- A history of magical abilities
- The earths elements
- Calming your powerful mind

"Wow thank you" I said whilst flicking through some of the pages. The texts were old and well read which you could tell from their weathered look.
"Those were given to me by my mother. She knew I was hot headed so calming my mind was always her priority" he laughed. " I mean it Y/N I am more than happy to help you. And again, I am sorry for treating you so poorly. I didn't know that you'd been through so much what with your parents and their death and you seeing them and..." my head turned to him. "What about my parents death?" What did he know that I didn't? "I wasn't at the house when the fire broke out Loki" I could feel my heart beat racing.
"Are you sure ? Stark said...." he paused. He had realised at this point that clearly i didn't know what he was about to say.
"What did Tony say? Is there something that I don't know? What happened to my parents Loki" I was getting angry that there was more to what I was told. Tears started to form in my eyes.

"I...Y/N I think this should come from Tony not me."
"Loki tell me now!" Anger flurried and the tears were appearing.
He sighed and returned to sit next to me and face me.

"What do you know of your parents death Y/N?" He asked
"A fire broke out whilst I was at a friends house. They didn't survive" I was looking at Loki in the eyes pleading for answers. He looked sad. Not for himself , but for me.

"Some of that is true. They did die in a fire. But you were there" he paused
"No... no I wasn't" I argued.
"The night your parents died , you were there Y/N. Your mother and father were fighting, I believe your mother was injured. You became scared and angry and tried to defend your mother so bravely. You threw flames at your father which took hold and the entire house went up..." he stopped as he could see you were starting to panic. He held your hands and stroked the back of your hand to try and keep you calm. It wasn't working.

"You ran out of the house to safety but were obviously in hysterics which then caused you to create an earthquake below the house which made it crumble. And then you blacked out."

Loki looked at me desperately for an answer. What could I say? I had been lied to my entire life. I had been told something different. I had killed my parents.

I killed my parents.

"Y/N it wasn't your fault. You were young. You didn't know how to control your powers you.."
"I killed them. Loki you can't say that it wasn't my fault. I killed them." My breathing shallowed and I could feel myself shaking.
"Why can't I remember anything?"
"I don't know... that will be a question for Stark"
As if he had been conjured , Tony and the team returned from their mission.
"Hey Y/N... Loki? Are you holding hands?" Steve stopped next to Nat who were both now looking at the two of you sat next to each other hand in hand. Loki dropped your hand and stood up.
"What's this reindeer games? What did I say about upsetting her?!" Tony was mad. He thought the reason behind my tears and shaking was Loki. It wasn't. It was myself.

"I didn't do anything Stark maybe you should ask her yourself" Loki snapped. He was angry. Angry for Y/N.
"What's he talking about Y/N?" Thor asked , walking to stand with Steve and Nat who were now behind Tony.
"Why did you lie to me?" I looked up at Tony , tears streaming down my face.
"About what?" Tony replied looking confused but concerned. He knew I knew.
"My parents. Their death. That I killed them" the words stung as I said them.
Tony glared at Loki and sighed.
"This isn't how we wanted you to find out..." Bruce chimed in.
"WE? We? You all knew?" I stood, fists clenched. "You all knew and no one thought to tell me!"
"Y/N calm down. Let's go into my office and you and I will talk" Tony took me by the arm and led me to his office.

Tony's office overlooked the city and was decked with hi tec gadgets and trophies and photos of him with famous faces.
He sat me down and perched on the table in front of me.
"Tony I need to know" I pleaded.

"Okay, I'll start from the beginning"