After All This Time// Sebastian Sallow x Reader Hogwarts Legacy Fanfiction

Sebastian's POV//

Even though it wasn't her who spoke those words to me the night of her birthday, I still wonder sometimes whether they were true. 

I didn't feel like I'd ever be good enough for someone like her. 

I had wanted for her to let that dark ancient magic out into the world- not a care in my mind on what the consequences would be if she did. All that was running through my mind was whether or not there was a possibility to help Anne with it. 

Even if I wanted to help Anne anymore, I couldn't. She will never forgive me for what I've done, and I don't blame her whatsoever. I lost my sister and my best friend all because of my choices. 

I wondered all the time what else I was capable of ruining. Being close to y/n now, I was always worried. If she ever needed anything from me, I would do it. I know for a fact that I wouldn't hesitate to repeat my old mistakes if they were to benefit y/n in any way. After today's lesson with Hecat, I couldn't stop thinking about it. 

I would kill for her. I would punish those who hurt her. I would do anything for her.

Even though the memories of what I'd done are still haunting me, I wouldn't hesitate whatsoever if it came to y/n. I couldn't lose her too. 

I didn't want to go after the men in the cave, but if y/n did, I would be at her side through it all. No matter the cost, whatever that may be. I will always be there to help. 

I felt bad for leaving her like that in the commons, but I needed a moment to gather myself after the class today. I kept thinking about all of the terrible things that could happen to her and it made me feel uneasy; whenever I thought about it, the thoughts just kept flowing and there was no turning it off. 

I was so afraid to lose her. Just thinking about seeing her in pain made me sick. 

I needed some time by myself after the class to think about some things. I couldn't help think that her being around me could somehow be bad for her, but I also couldn't stand the thought of not being with her. 

Y/n's POV//

After Sebastian left me in the commons, I went to my dorm. I wanted to talk to Sebastian about our game plan for tomorrow, but I assumed he needed some time for himself after walking away from me like that. 

Maybe I was being too clingy. Maybe he was getting tired of me and needed a break already. 

I'd pretty much been at his side every waking moment since the party this weekend. Being apart from him felt like torture; I knew that sounded a bit extra, but I really hated being away from him. 

His smile brought me peace, and his kisses and touches were like my own personal type of drug. 

I placed my fingers against my lips as I thought about the kisses we shared. 

"Over there daydreaming, are we?" Imelda said as she entered the dorm. "Well get up, we've got practice." 

"Already on it," I said. I had all my stuff laid out, I just hadn't changed yet. There was too much running through my mind. 

After a few minutes, I followed her orders and changed into my quidditch clothes. 

I met the team out on the field for practice. It was late October now and was starting to get really cold. Even though I'd bundled up before practice, I was still freezing the whole time. 

Afterwards, I caught up with Sebastian as he walked back to the castle. "Hey," I greeted. 

"Hey," he said back. He still seemed distant, and I didn't want to push, so I walked back with him in silence. He did grab my hand, giving it a light squeeze, which made me feel a bit better.

We went our separate ways in the commons, heading to our respective dorms. 

"What's up with Sebastian?" Imelda asked me. "He seemed totally out of it at practice."

I shrugged in response. "I'm not sure, but I can talk to him about it," I offered. I knew what was bothering him, but I didn't think it was my place to go around discussing it with others. 

After shedding my quidditch clothes and showering, I headed over to the boy's hall to see Sebastian. I knocked on the door and Ominis answered. 

"Hello, y/n," he said. "What brings you here?"

"Sebastian," I said. "Is he here?" 

Ominis looked back into the room, and I heard a voice on the other side. "Tell her I'm not," they whispered. I was pretty sure it was Sebastian. 

"Not currently," Ominis replied, looking back at me. 

"Do you know where he is?" I inquired, knowing he was on the other side. Is Sebastian avoiding me?

"He didn't say when he left." 

I sighed, and then spoke in a louder tone, speaking past Ominis. "Well tell him that I'm looking for him if you see him, and let him know that I feel like he's avoiding me and I want to know why."

"I'll let him know," Ominis muttered, before closing the door. I rolled my eyes and left the hall. Now I knew for sure he was avoiding me. I tried not to let it bother me, but it did. 

I headed into the Great Hall for dinner and was immediately bombarded by Poppy. Her energy was a lot right now, but I was still friendly with her. I sat down at the Hufflepuff table with her as well. She was going on about some mooncalves she found in the forest. 

"You really shouldn't be out there all by yourself, you know," I scolded. Especially with the new threat Sebastian and I discovered the other night. There could be others out there like them. 

"Oh, I wasn't alone," she replied. She looked down at her plate, pushing the food around with her fork. Her face was beet red. Now I was curious. 

"Oh? Who went with you?" I poked. 

"Well, Garreth offered to take me, so I let him come," she only blushed harder after saying his name.

"Garreth? Garreth Weasley?" I giggled. "Is there something there I should know about?" 

"Oh, no! It's nothing like that, he just offered to help me, is all. He's been especially nice to me as of late, and I guess- well I guess I've liked hanging out with him so often." 

She seemed extra shy about it, so I didn't press it much further. 

"He's a nice guy, I just wouldn't trust any of the potions he brews," I told her. Poppy's nice enough that she might drink one if he were to gift one to her like he had with me. 

After the warning about his potions, I moved on to a new topic. I could tell she liked him, seeing as she acted so coy about it. I was definitely excited for her.