After All This Time// Sebastian Sallow x Reader Hogwarts Legacy Fanfiction

Obliviate? Why? Does he expect me to use the spell on myself?

"I'm familiar," I replied. 

"And to my knowledge, I know you are very familiar with the unforgivables."

"...Yes," I replied, this time a bit more hesitantly. 

Sebastian suddenly clutched his hands around my waist from behind, desperately trying to get me to turn around. "I'd rather die," he whispered, over and over again. "I'd sooner die than face this."

"First, I would like you to use obliviate on your friend there," Charles said. His lips were beginning to turn into a cruel smile as he clasped his fingers together. "I want him to forget you. I can't have him getting in the way of us any longer."

Hearing him say those words, my heart split in two. On the logical side, he would get to live, but we couldn't be together anymore. I don't know how well I could handle that, but I knew Sebastian could. He wouldn't even have anything to miss. He wouldn't know me or feel pain any more when I'm not with him. This also means that I would be able to go after Charles without him standing in the way. 

But what I couldn't get past was how this would make me feel. I know Sebastian loves me. I could see it in his eyes as I thought over Charles words. Tears were beginning to fall from his eyes as I stood there silently. My heart was breaking, but knowing that he would get to live was worth the price. 

I looked at Sebastian, who was now clung around me, still whispering, yet his words were now completely incomprehensible. "I have to," I whispered. "You will live, and I can find some way to bring you back to me, I promise."

He only clung around me even tighter as sobs began to escape his lips. "No, you can't," he said. "There must be another way."

"I don't think there is right now," I told him. "You have to let me do this." 

"No, I won't!" He loosened his grip on me and attempted to run away through the trees. 

"Accio!" said one of Charles's men, bringing Sebastian back. 

"Do it now, y/n," Charles said. "Do it now, or else he will die. You promised me you would do anything to keep him alive. Well, this is your 'anything'."

I slowly raised my wand. 

My chest was tight and my limbs shook as I held my wand towards Sebastian. Even though I could feel tears forming in my eyes, I would not let them fall. Not now. 

"Obliviate," I said, my voice barely audible. My eyes involuntarily clenched shut as the spell did its work. 

"Good," Charles said. "Very good."

I finally opened my eyes and looked at Sebastian, but all I saw was a confused boy, who seemed to have no idea why he was in the woods at all. 

"Where am I?" Sebastian said, frantically. A lump was beginning to form in my throat and any words that I wanted to say, wouldn't come out, and my lips slightly parted as if they wanted to speak. I could feel his look of fear and question deep in the pit of my stomach. 

"Here's what I want you to do next," Charles said, pulling me from my thoughts. My brain was fuzzy, and the implications of what I'd just done had yet to sink in. "I want you to use imperio on him, make him return to the castle. I have no further need for him here."

All at once, the memories of my awful dream came back. I fell to my knees as the images poured into my mind. I saw this. I knew this would happen, didn't I? And somehow I was still unable to keep it from happening. 

"Get up, dear," Charles spoke, in a sickeningly sweet tone. "You know what to do."

And just like my dream, I cast imperio on Sebastian. He passed by me with a blank look on his face as he began his walk back to the castle. I watched him go for a moment before Charles tapped me on the shoulder. I jumped as I turned around, and tried to keep the monsoon of tears inside of me from escaping. 

"There is still work to be done tonight," Charles told me. He held out his arm, and I took it without a second thought. He apparated us to the entrance of a cave. 

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As quick as everything had started, it was over, and I was back in my dorm in my pajamas, as if nothing had happened at all. I couldn't think properly, and I couldn't sleep either, as all of the things I'd just done were still fresh in my mind. 

Charles had taken us to a cave, where I helped him harvest and wield the strange dark magic. From there, he took me to a small hamlet, where we laid waste to the whole place. Though I didn't kill anyone, I couldn't say the same for Charles and his goons. I only helped burn down their homes, is all. 

I felt disgusting. This went against everything I've ever stood for and fought against in the past years, but there was nothing else I could've done. My chest felt tight and full of emotions that I refused to let loose. I didn't know what would happen in the morning, when Ominis and our other friends saw what had transpired between us. 

And I only felt even more guilty that I hadn't kissed him and told him how much I loved him yesterday. My last moments with him were spent fighting and being needlessly cold, when I should've been cherishing his presence by my side. 

Yes, Sebastian was alive, but he was not mine. Even though he felt nothing, I would have to live with this for the rest of my life.