After All This Time// Sebastian Sallow x Reader Hogwarts Legacy Fanfiction

Chapter 73

And with that, everything swirled into plumes of smoke around us, and after a moment we found ourselves back in the present moment. 

I looked at Sebastian, who still hadn't said anything. 

"Why were you so keen on getting information out of me like that? About the spells?" he asked me suddenly, his eyes still trained on the pensieve. 

"Curiosity," I replied honestly. "I was new back then and didn't know what I know now about those kinds of things. I didn't know what those kinds of spells would be capable of."

"That's it? Just curiosity?"

"Yes," I replied, not sure what else to say. 

I guess he was still trying to piece things together between what he knew about me now, and what he just learned about past me. 

"I'm assuming we saw more of each other after that," he stated. "Ominis said you were important to me, but I'm struggling to understand how I was important to you." His hazel eyes were darkened and clouded with thought. 

"What are you saying?" I asked. I wasn't sure where Sebastian was going with this. He folded his hands together and started pacing. 

"I was just saying that it seemed you were only interested in learning spells from me," he stated plainly. "Is that why I was important to you?"

"You can't base your whole opinion on me off of one conversation," I said defensively. 

"Well it's certainly looking that way, isn't it?"

"You were the one who brought it up in the first place back then," I pointed out. "I was only curious as to what you were meaning. Like I said, I was new back then and had no idea the implications of learning the things that we did."

I wanted to tell him that through everything we went through, it was never about the spells we learned. Never once did it cross my mind that I was going to see him just to use him. Maybe he was using me as a way to justify his opinions and motives back then, but all it was about for me was getting close to him. All I wanted back then was to be his friend. And so, I stood by him through everything and tried my hardest to justify that what he was doing was okay. 

I've never been good at talking about how I feel. I could have tried to convey this to him, but I wouldn't have known how to say it properly. 

"Whatever you say," he said, before he started to head for the door. I grabbed his sleeve, eager to somehow prove to him that he meant more to me than that. I hated the fact that he could even consider that's all it was. 

"Would you like to see one more?" I asked him. 

He turned back around to face me. I studied his face, but couldn't quite figure out what he was thinking. All I knew is that I didn't want him walking out of here thinking that that's all he meant to me. 

"Fine," he said. 

Next, I showed him the first time we dueled in Professor Hecat's class. I beat him pretty well, yet he was still impressed and intrigued by me. Back then, that was a very attractive trait to me- even though I beat him, he still respected me and wanted to get to know me. It showed me that his ego wasn't too big to accept that a girl could be better than him, which couldn't be said about a lot of other boys at this school. I loved that Sebastian respected me as an equal. After the class, he'd invited me to participate in the dueling club he was a part of, which had really helped me sharpen my dueling skills. 

Sebastian and I always dueled as partners throughout it, and we even won the competition together. I thought back to the moment we won the tournament- it was the first time he ever hugged me and made me blush. From that moment on, I couldn't get him out of my head. Of course he didn't see me like I saw him back then, but I just always wanted to be near him regardless. 

After we were out of the memory and back in the Undercroft, Sebastian asked me to show him more. I was a bit hesitant; I didn't want to overload him with too many memories at once, but he was very demanding in that he was ready to see more. 

And so I showed him our first trip to Hogsmeade along with the troll attack and our venture into the restricted section of the library. The last one we viewed was us winning the crossed wands tournament. I knew the next memory was when we located the scriptorium with Ominis. I really debated showing him that one. 

This was when he taught me the first unforgivable curse, crucio. I had him cast it on me, as there was no way in hell I could even consider casting it on him. I knew you really had to mean it in order for it to work, and in no universe would I ever want to harm Sebastian. Not intentionally, anyways. 

"Show me another one," he said. 

"I think that's enough for today," I said. "It's getting late. We've already missed a class. Ominis is probably wondering what we're up to." 

He sighed and headed for the exit without another word. 

I just wish he would have said something. I had no idea what he was thinking, and it was killing me.