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Alyssa Pov

Ugh I really need to do something! I can either find another babysitter or tell Eddie that he is the father to my son! I feel like if I tell him it's gonna cause a lot of problems

Number one he will want to be in his life, Number two i'll be seeing Shannon possibly since they're married, number three the team will find out hes my ex who broke my heart! And lastly he might want custody since we're not together and he's married!

I'm hoping if he ever finds out the last one is not an option he wants to do! Cause I can't lose my son, he's my world! I love them so much and I can't live without him. He's the reason why I wake up with a smile on my face.

Today I'm taking my son to work with me! My shift is from 8 AM to 8 PM! I can't bring my son to Mia's because she's no longer available since she broke her foot but also her mother told her no more so she quit. I ended up finding someone to watch my son but they won't be available till three!

My neighbor Abigail that's one of the sweetest person ever! She's married and has two kids, one of them is in middle school and one of them is Christophers age. They will sometimes hang out! I texted her this morning asking her if she can watch my son and she said she can but it won't be till three. She has watched him a couple of times in the past. She knows what it's like being a single mother because her oldest Child was with her ex-husband and she was a single mother for a while. Until she met her current husband.

I'm hoping my dad does not yell at me, I have a shift today and she won't be able to come until later in the day and I really have to go to work and I have no one to watch him till then. I guess it's time to take Christopher with me!

"Hey bub, how would you like to come to work with me" I ask him

"Really? Yeah" he says excited and I nod. He's been asking to come to my job and see what it's like

"Do I get to see grandpa Nash" he asks and I nod

"Yes" he says excited! Christopher loves my dad. Those two always have had a great bond. Growing up Christopher would go to my dad's house and have sleepovers or we would have dinner with my dad sometimes. Christopher loves my dad's cooking and mine!

Christopher calls my dad grandpa Nash! My dad never wanted to be called grandpa Bobby or grandpa! he always wanted to be called grandpa Nash. Never knew why but it's what he wanted. My dad always wanted to be a grandpa, he was excited for when one of his kids would have a child. When I told him I was pregnant he was really excited, I haven't seen him that excited in a very long time!

"Ok, let's get our stuff together since we have to leave in 10 minutes. Even though I don't have to be at work till eight, traffic has been a little rough near the fire house" I say and he nods. Thankfully he's already dressed, I'll have to do is just put his shoes on and grab his bag full of books, games and coloring pages.

"Let's go" he says and I realize he put his slippers on instead of his sneakers. I guess he's really excited that he doesn't wanna put on his sneakers

"Christopher you have to wear your sneakers, you can't go wearing slippers. For safety precautions it's best for sneakers. If it makes you feel better I'll put your slippers in your bag so when you go to Abigail's house later you can wear them" I say and he nods. We get ready to head to the fire house.

When we get there I take Christopher to the locker room so I can get dressed and ready for the shift. I am 15 minutes late so everyone's currently upstairs but my dad's not here yet which is making me nervous because he doesn't know that I'm bringing Christopher. I never even said anything to him about bringing my son. He's not coming in for another two hours. So let's see how these next two hours ago before he comes!