If only

Eddie Pov

It's been a year, it's been a year since she left! I'm regretting every moment of it!

I ended up divorcing Shannon a month after we got custody. I was so pissed at Shannon, that I started ignoring her when Christopher wasn't around. I could tell she was hurt and realized how much she screwed up. She thought everything was gonna go her way and we were going to be a family well we're not! I rather be a family with Alyssa as my wife!

So when I handed her to voice papers, she signed because she realized how much I hated her and didn't love her anymore! She knew she screwed up and she was not doing this for me. She was doing it for herself!

After I got divorced, she told me she was gonna go to court and try to get custody over Christopher since we were no longer together but then I reminded her one thing! Since we're no longer married, she has no relation to Christopher anymore. So she realized she lost big time! So she moved but I don't know where! I know she's not in LA or California anymore! And I never ever wanna see her again!

I'm waiting for the day that I see Alyssa again! I want to tell her how much I screwed up and how much I'm so sorry for everything. I wanna try to at least be friends with her and maybe more than friends in the future! I realize during this time she's the one I wanna be with, but I think it's gonna be hard to get back together with her after everything I did to her!

The team hates me, well hated me! No one talk to me for five months, they would talk to me if we were on a call or if something was work related! Around the fifth month they started to forgive me after I told him how sorry I was that I divorced Shannon, which they were shocked about that! They thought since I got custody would be perfect, but they were wrong! The prefect family for me would be if I had Alyssa with me as my wife!

Christopher also misses her so much! For the first two weeks Christopher was really down about it but it's got better as time went on. I did things that Carla said would make him feel better, and it did help! I kept Carla as Christopher's caregiver and I didn't really know how to take care of him. She helped me so much and now I'm getting a hang of a lot of it! I'm very thankful that Alyssa had someone like her to help. She's perfect for Christopher!

I'm counting down the days, so when I can reach out to Alyssa and have her see her son again! Because I know that would make Christopher so happy! I know it will!

A/N: oh they divorced!! Bye bye Shannon!

Very short chapter! Sorry! The next one will be longer!! This was more of a little update chapter of  Eddie life!

It's official gonna start getting better!