My Journey To Normality (Part 2)

Day 4 of no food or water: I really really want a glass of water, my mouth is soooo dry. I really want chocolate cake, cookies, literally anything at this point. However I've come this far and I guess I need to keep going. Honestly never thought I'd have the self motivation to make it this far, normally when I try to diet I give up once someone puts junk food in front of me. I find it so hard to resist food that's in front of me. That's  why I haven't gone shopping, all I have is two cans of soup in my flat, I don't bring my debit card with me to work either, so that I can't buy food while I'm out. I did buy some gum though, I was so concious of my breath, even though I'm not eating it's bad. I wouldn't wish this on anyone, it's so uncomftable and painful and I'm only four days in. My stomach is constantly rumberling and aching, it's hard to ignore it. The chronic pain I experience because of my hypermobility is getting so much worse, I'm in constant agonising pain every where in my body. I keep having hot and cold flushes, like having a fever or something. My energy has just drained out of me, I have no strength in my body at all. I'm gonna keep going though, I have to keep going. I'm suprised that I haven't fainted yet though.