Unfiltered // Loki x Reader

After announcing that you and Loki needed to speak, and that you would both be in your room, you both left.

He stood by you as you lead him to your room. You opened the door when you got there and let him in, closing it after. "Sorry, I wasn't expecting anyone to come in today," You laughed to him nervously, as you quickly fixed your messy bed, since everything else was neat. He nodded, telling you it was alright.

A moment later, you sat on your bed in silence as he looked from wall to wall - around your room as he kept close to the door. How were you supposed to talk to someone so close that you hadn't seen for 5 years? Either way, you still smiled, you were glad to have him back.

"Why do you still smile to me?" He finally spoke. "What do you mean?" Your eyebrows furrowed as you looked up from the ground towards his crystal green eyes. "How can you still smile to me after everything I have done to you?" He asked in a monotone, hands behind his back while he avoiding eye contact with you. "Loki, you've done nothing wrong to me," You shook your head as it slowly tilted. "All your life I have done something wrong to you. You got in trouble with people many times because of my actions. This time, I got you sent here because you did nothing. Yet, you still smile to me as if I have done nothing wrong. Why?" His eyes fell to the floor as they squinted. You stood up and walked to him. Holding his forearm his one of your hands, you spoke, "Loki, going with you was my own choice. I could have chosen to go with Thor or leave completely but I didn't. You mean so much to me Loki, I couldn't do that." He didn't look down to you, but only stopped squinting and clenched his jaw - which you could see happen. Even though his head turned towards you, his eyes refused to look at you.

"Is it that bad that you can't even look at me?" Your hand slipped off his forearm as your chest felt pain. "It's not that I can't, Y/N. It's that I don't want to look at what I have done." "You haven't done anything." You told him. You cupped his face and turned his face to you properly, but he shut his eyes. "Loki, look at me." He stood in silence. "If you can't even look at me then why am I here?" Your chest tightened, knowing that he was able to do this to you. "You know everything about me. Yet, you still don't understand why I smile?" You shook your head and let go of his face, taking a few steps back. "You have changed." You muttered with a frown.

As you walked away to your window, you watched the world go by. "Loki, I waited here for so long. I hoped for you to be kept safe and to one day look into your eyes again. Why do you stop me now?" You watched two people arguing, one turning and leaving. Turning back to Loki, your eyes drifted down, but you jumped seeing him suddenly behind you. He put his hand to your head and saw everything that you had been through while you were here.

Almost throwing yourself back, you hit yourself against the windowsill and stared at him; wide eyed. He seemed unmoved, but in his eyes you could see slight shock. He still refused to look at you, but you kept trying. "Then let me see you." You announced, moving towards him and putting your hand to his head. As you had finished, you froze. "Frigga is dead?" You blinked dozens of times, pushing back tears. "But, wait, Loki. You were on Earth, did you not think of me once?" Emotions ran through you and you didn't know how to feel.

Brushing past him, you went to sit on your bed but Loki grabbed your arm with a sigh. "Do not do this," He asked. "Do not do what, Loki? I just saw everything from the past 5 years, that we could not meet, I think should get to sit quietly." You turned your head back to him and his emerald eyes were looking into yours. "No, do not change. You speak of me having changed, but you have changed so much too," He said. You stood silently, looking at him with nothing to say. Your body relaxed and you pulled your arm away. "I should slap you as Jane did," A small smile broke onto your lips. "I would like you a lot more than I did her," He grinned. You started to laugh, tears sitting in your eyes.