The Triangle

❥Warning:
Includes strong language.

-Y/N's POV-
My breathing was at a fast pace, I couldn't stop it, making me freak out more when suddenly, my breathing stopped.

I felt pressure on my lips, making me hold my breath. The person kissed me softly but soon, I felt more pressure.

It felt amazing, the way I was being kissed. It felt natural and calming, making me forget all about what happened before.

I melted into it, kissing this person back with just as much passion as them. Their hands slid down to grasp my waist, pulling me closer to them, making instant butterflies enter my stomach as I deepened our kiss, savoring the sweet flavor of it.

After a few more moments, they pulled away from me. Making me let out a content sigh as I slowly opened my eyes to see none other than my best friend.

I blinked a few more times as my eyes slowly started to widen, realizing what happened. I quickly backed up into Nicole's nightstand, making me jump slightly as my cheeks felt on fire.

Y/N:
"W—wh—" I stuttered as my eyes widened more at George's flustered expression and bright red cheeks.

GEORGE:
"Y—you were having a panic attack...I—I distracted you so it would end..." he spoke quietly with a frown, "I—I'm sorry for doing that without your permission...I—I just wanted you to calm down..."

I blinked rapidly while feeling anxiety rise to my chest.

"Why does my stomach feel weird??" I thought while swallowing hard.

I glanced between all 3 of my best friends. They looked shocked and nervous at me, trying to read my expression.

So I wouldn't make a big deal out of just a stupid kiss, I sighed nervously as my shoulders dropped.

Y/N:
"T—thank you f—for calming me down..." I messed with my fingers while looking down at them.

GEORGE:
"Y—your welcome..."

Clay's frown deepened at me.

CLAY:
"Y/N, we know what happened and, if you wanna take your anger out on us, it's okay. We just wanna be there for you." His eyebrows squished together in sadness, "It's killing us to see you this way..."

I clenched my jaw as my thoughts grounded me again from before. My eyes narrowed at Nick.

Y/N:
"It's your fault she's dead..." I snapped, making everyone's eyes widen, "I told you that guy looked suspicious but YOU'RE the one who told me it wasn't a big deal! I knew something was wrong and you made me spend the whole day almost dying when she probably did when I almost did!!"

My voice trembled as the tears filled my eyes again. I shook my head while frowning at him with a glare.

Y/N:
"You told me I was paranoid and all that time I was...I could've been off, saving her...! It's your fault...it's your fault I'm like this..." I twitched my nose while staring him down.

Nick's glossy eyes fell to his lap as his lips curled down lower. He looked disappointed in himself.

Y/N:
"And you?" I met Clay's gaze, "You just had to take me into your precious group."

I shook my head as I spat, narrowing my eyes further.

Y/N:
"Well guess what Clay...? Your little group took my sister away from me, it's YOUR fault that we weren't close...I could've had more time with her, I could've stopped what happened..."

My tears collapsed to the carpet as my lip quivered at him.

Y/N:
"It's your fault too..." I shook my head while glaring at him with a frown.

Clay's glossy eyes fell to his lap just like Nick's. Then my eyes fell to George. He had more tears in his eyes, so much that they were already streaming down his face, scared for what I had to say to him.

Y/N:
"And you..." I shook my head as I swallowed hard, "You're just as bad as them..."

George shut his eyes sadly with a sigh. I shakily stood up as I held myself.

Y/N:
"You should go now..." I spoke lowly while looking out the window.

The 3 of them stood up.

CLAY:
"Y/N—" he said quietly as he tried holding my arms, making me step away.

Y/N:
"No, I really think you should go now..." I whispered while clenching my jaw.

NICK:
"Y/N...we're sorry..." his voice was weak.

I nodded with a glare.

Y/N:
"Sorry isn't gonna change anything...sorry isn't gonna bring her back..."

I glanced between the 3 of them.

Y/N:
"I lost my sister..." my lip quivered, "and now you've lost me..."

As if their expressions couldn't get any more heartbroken, they did. All of them released their breath as their shoulders dropped in disbelief.

GEORGE:
"Y—Y/N..." his voice shook as his lip slightly quivered.

Y/N:
"Leave..." I spoke coldly while glaring at the 3 of them.

The 3 of them exchanged sad glances then looked back at me.

CLAY:
"Y—Y/N...you need us...you know that, without us you feel—"

Y/N:
"Numb..." I nodded as my eyes narrowed at him, "Maybe being numb will be a good thing...then I won't have to waste my time on disappointments anymore..."

Nick shut his eyes, making his tears collapse. George's lip quivered as he looked down at his shoes. Meanwhile, Clay frowned at me with a slow nod.

CLAY:
"We love you Y/N...we're not gonna give up on you..."

I walked towards them, making them back out the doorway into the hallway. I held the side of the door with a cold stare.

Y/N:
"Well I'm giving up on you..." I spoke lowly with a nod.

I slammed the door, locking it without seeing their faces. I felt so much pressure on my chest as my tears fell to the ground, almost like in slow motion as my heart slowly began to break, piece by piece, knowing I let everyone I loved down.

I slid my back down the door as my lip quivered at the wall of my sister's photographed memories, making me feel more pressure on my chest.

Instead of crying again, my expression fell as I looked at the photos of me and my family, realizing that I now had no family, no friends, no anything on my side.

That's when everything became numb again.

❥Sorry for the later and short chapter again. Being sick sucks🤦🏼‍♀️

❥Thanks for reading!
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