The Triangle

Chapter 131 ? Little

Y/N:
"Actually um, never mind..." I looked down while messing with my sleeves again.

Clay nodded hesitantly then left, leaving his door wide open. I sighed as I watched him leave. I couldn't help but think of my dream I had today. I also couldn't help but miss how things were before I took my break.

•••••

I ended up laying on Clay's bed with my thoughts for company until the pancakes were done. Once they were, Nick brought me a plate of them.

NICK:
"Pancakes are done." He lightly smiled while handing them to me.

Y/N:
"Oh, thanks..." I sat up, took them from him and stared down at them.

They were chocolate chip pancakes. There were 2 chocolate chips as eyes and more for the lips, they were curled up into a smiley face, making me lightly smile.

Nick nodded awkwardly and began to walk away. Instead of doing what I did with Clay, I let Nick leave. I sighed to myself while messing with my pancakes with my fork they offered me.

As much as I wanted to eat downstairs with them, it felt wrong to. I still felt like something was wrong between us, and the dream has made me overthink even more.

Deep down, I want those futures with them. I want to be one of their brides, and I want us to live happily ever after like the fairy tales. But I won't get that fairy tale unless I choose someone, and I can't choose someone until I know who really owns my heart.

But right now, I needed my friends, not boyfriends. Unfortunately, my friends and I were all nervous to be in the same room for long, we were afraid of saying or doing the wrong thing.

We ended up going out to shopping centers. Every time I found something I liked, I looked at the price tag then set it back down on the rack with a frown. My friends weren't even near me at all throughout the whole experience.

The 4 of us strolled down the streets side by side, but we barely said any words. It was awkward and nerve-wrecking.

My friends and I stayed out for an hour until we got hungry. We decided to get some ice cream. Now, we were all seated down at a picnic table in the park.

We were still dead silent. The only noises that could be heard were birds chirping, wind blowing and cars in the back.

I honestly didn't know what to say to them. I felt like I scared them from even talking. I felt like they thought I was too sensitive now. I felt like our friendships had changed for the worst.

Y/N:
"Thanks for the ice cream..." I spoke quietly while glancing in between each of them.

CLAY:
"No problem..." He lightly smiled.

After that, we all became silent again. My eyes couldn't help but form slight tears in them.

I wanted us to be the way we used to be.

We used to sit at this exact picnic table all the time as kids and now, we could barely look at each other, let alone talk to each other.

This is exactly why I was always afraid of growing up.

I let out a sigh and laid my left cheek against my arms as I stared out at the scenery, my head facing away from my friends, all with a frown on my face, wishing we could go back to being kids, where everything was so much easier.

-CLAY's POV-
While Y/N was sleeping this morning, my friends and I had a talk about everything that happened yesterday with her.

We agreed to keep things as civil as possible. But deep down, we were afraid to talk to her. She's been our best friend our entire lives and now after everything that's happened, we were afraid that whatever we did or said, would hurt her.