The Triangle

Chapter 164 ? Yours

I let go of my hair to rub my eyes with my fingers.

CLAY:
"Are you disappointed...?" His voice was weak.

I opened my eyes to meet his.

Y/N:
"Yeah, I am..."

Clay's frown worsened, he pouted as the tears overflowed his eyes.

Y/N:
"I'm disappointed because I can't remember a thing about it..."

His expression fell a little.

Y/N:
"I'm not disappointed because we fell for each other...I'm disappointed because I can't remember what it's like to be yours..." I frowned.

Clay's eyes widened all the way again, he was truly shocked of the words coming out of my mouth.

Y/N:
"Clay...even though I don't remember...my heart still does because...I felt things last night when we were cuddling...and it felt right to call you 'baby' I—" I sighed, "Clay...I know I don't remember but...am I still yours...? Did we ever break up...?"

He breathed heavily with a sad expression, like he was conflicted in his head about something.

Y/N:
"Yes or...no...?"

Clay gulped nervously.

-CLAY's POV-
This was the moment where I could lie to her, I could tell her that we were dating, then we could actually be. I could have my crush fall asleep in my arms every night, I could kiss her whenever I wanted, I could hold her hand, I could be happy.

I could have my girl back. But, I'd lose my friends in the process.

So, I decided to come clean to Y/N, about everything. Everything George told us not to do.

CLAY:
"Y/N...we technically didn't date but...we almost did..."

Her eyebrows squished together.

CLAY:
"Y/N...I've liked you since the 6th grade..."

-Y/N's POV-
My heart fell, my lips parted in shock, my eyes widened.

Y/N:
"W—What...?"

CLAY:
"I still like you...and this year, we kissed, we went on dates—" Tears filled his eyes fast, "It felt like you were mine and then...then you lost your memory...and that made me feel so fucking lost because I felt like I lost you..."

I was barely breathing, I was frozen in shock.

CLAY:
"That's the main reason why I cut myself last night, okay? I—" His voice cracked as he frowned, "I'm so in love with you that it hurts, it hurts so fucking much...because I know that the girl who once loved me...is gone..."

My lips curled down while staring at my best friend.

CLAY:
"Y—Y/N..." He released a shaky breath out, "I know you've liked George since the 10th grade and I know you've liked Nick since the 11th..."

I gasped as my heart fell even more.

CLAY:
"You told them this year and...Y/N, they've always liked you too..."

Now it was my turn to have watery eyes.

CLAY:
"Y/N...you went on dates with all of us this year, you kissed all of us, you—" He sighed, "You were planning on picking one of us to date for good...you had your decision ready at graduation but...you lost your memory...you lost your feelings for me..."

My gaze fell to the bridge as my lips stayed open in shock. I couldn't believe this.

CLAY:
"Y/N..." He said quietly, "Being with you this year has been truly the greatest moments of my life...you made me happy to be alive every time I held your hand...everytime I made you laugh...everytime we kissed...Y/N...I know you didn't fall in love with me until this year, and I know you don't remember loving me that way, but...is there a part of you that still does...?"