Finding Myself

" Luke...uh " I was shocked to see him

" You know I've been looking for you for a good two days right , I was worried sick , give me a hug ,are you hurt anywhere?"

He says as he looks me up and down , good thing my back is covered,he would kill me if he knew someone hit me

" Uh I'm ok , I umm "

I honestly didn't know what to say to him ,that I ran away from his kindness ,because I don't deserve it , or that I feel like a burden and that sometimes I just wanna be alone

Samuel and Nick were just staring ,looking from me to Luke then back to me again

" You have alot of explaining to do young lady and your in a heap of trouble , now let's go home"

" But I wanna stay here , I made friends Luke ! " I whine

" Isabella you know damn well that kids can not give you want you need in life ,you need discipline , structure and guidance, they need the same thing in their young life , I'm not taking you away from your friends,but you can't stay here , you can visit anytime you want , under my supervision only!"

" You can't run away from home like that ,it's dangerous and you could of got hurt , kidnapped, of even worse! "

Luke just lectures me in front of Samuel and Nick

" Your lucky I didn't have the whole police department looking for you ,and boys you would have to excuse us ,we have stuff we need to take care of at home , Isabella say your goodbyes "

" Bye Samuel ,thanks for everything,I'll see you soon ok, and Nick it was nice to meet you "

Samuel comes up to me and gives me a hug and whispers in my ear

" You can call me Sammy , I'm gonna see you again I promise , I'll miss you "

After he breaks the hug ,Luke grabs my hand and walks me away from them and towards the truck , I look back three or four times ,

I'm gonna miss him.....

On the drive there Luke lectures me more but I don't listen and just stare out the window ,wondering what my future would be ,and if I'll ever see Sammy again

" Isabella. Are you listening to me "

" Sure ,sure " I say

" Young lady , what have I done to you that you run off like that , worrying me to death and now your acting all stubborn"

" Nothing , I just wanted to be alone! Ok , I hate your stupid rules I have to live by , I don't always wanna eat or sleep , or do school !!! I hate being told what to do, I thought if I ran away I wouldn't have to worry about dumb rules ever again !! This is all stupid, stupid ,stupid!!!"

I breathing heavy after yelling and showing that much emotion

" Isabella , you need rules in your life , you are a kid , you need love and taking care of, I know your used to being by yourself, but thats not good for you ,your health ,your education, I'm here to help ,not make your life miserable" Luke stops the truck because we pulled in the driveway

" Do you understand,what I'm trying to tell you ?" He asks

" Ok , I understand, but can I go visit Sammy whenever I want , and you not watching me 24/7" I ask

" We will see , for now ,your grounded and cannot leave the house for two days , the time I spent looking for you , you can spend in your room , and you will be getting a spanking"

" No please no , I'm grounded already and I understand what I did was wrong ,please don't spank me ,please "

I beg ,I almost feel tears trying to escape, I hate spanking ,they hurt

" Young lady , you say you learned your lesson,just to get out of punishment, but no your not getting out of this , I need to make sure you never have a thought to just up and run away without saying anything"

" Now get in the house and to your room, and I'll be up shortly"

I just sit there , I don't wanna be punished, I just want to be with Samuel,he's fun and theres no rules

" Get out"

" No ,I'll like to stay here" I say

" You don't have a choice ,now get out" he says sternly

" No ,your gonna spank me , I don't want that!"

" Isabella ,no one likes to be punished,but it's part of life , the sooner you leave the truck ,the sooner the spanking will be over , now get going "

I slowly get out of the truck and slowly make my way inside ,with Luke behind me

" Hurry up now " Luke says as he smacks my bum one time

I run upstairs not wanting him to smack me anymore and go to my room and wait , wishing I didn't have to go through this , I just want it to be over with.....