Finding Myself

" No , my dad died " I say

" Sweetie ,that's what we also need to tell you about " Ethan says

" I don't know who you are , you guys are scaring me " I say

" Oh sweetie ,don't be scared , everything is ok " Ethan comes over to where I'm sitting but stops

" Luke " he says and motions with his head for Luke to come .

Luke walks over to me and picks me and sits down with me on his lap

" It's ok to be scared , this is all new to you , is it ok if Ethan tells you a story real quick ?"

I nod

" It's about your past " Luke says

" Ok " I say and look at Ethan

He sits back down across from us

" You were three years old and " your parents" were my friends , we were having a birthday party for one of your cousins and we all were gathered at a park to celebrate, they were always so clingy with you and always told me that you need a mother in your life ,that just me was not what you need in life , that you need both parents . That afternoon they said they were taking you to the swing with the other kids , I was talking with some of the parents,so I just let you go with them , they were my closest friends after all , but what I didn't know was that that was the last time I was ever gonna see you again , that is until now.

" They planned to kidnap you and keep you , but they don't plan all the way , they didn't think about the cops looking out for their arrest, so I guess they went in hiding "

I try to understand and believe everything that I was just told but it was hard , after all I did grow up thinking those people were my parents , now I'm unsure of who could be lying to me

" How did you find out that I'm your daughter?" I ask

" Luke found your file and told me about your last name being Smith ,Luke didn't know anything about me losing you  and that you were kidnapped 9 years ago ,I wanted to meet up in the next few days and talk about it with him but I never got a chance , until last night you said you were staying with him and I realized you were my baby , my Isabella "

I look at him , he really is such a nice man , could he really be my father ? But I don't know him

" You could have a home with your father Isabella!" Luke says ,trying to sound happy ,but I know he doesn't wanna lose me

" So what are your thoughts sweetie?" Ethan asks

" I don't know ,but I wanna stay with you Luke  and Samuel. I don't know Ethan " I say

Ethan's face sank and he almost looked like he was gonna cry

" Excuse me for a moment please , I need some water " Ethan says and gets up to leave

" Sweetie how about you slowly get to know him , after all he is your father " Luke says

" I want you Luke And Samuel, I'm scared to go with Ethan , and what if I never see you again ? Is he gonna take me away from you ?"

" Sweetie, Ethan is your father , I'm not . you cannot stay with me , you must stay with your legal guardian, you have no custody over you and what if something happens , I have no paperwork saying you are mine ?"

" You can come visit me whenever you want , I'll always be happy to see you ok?"

Luke grabs me and hugs me tight

I start crying

" Buttt..umm. I'm scared Luke "

" And that is completely normal sweetpea"

" I love you "

" Your gonna make me cry " Luke says

" But I love you too sweetpea , like this much " he opens his hands to show me

" And I love you this much "

I open my arms as wide as they could go

"See and no one can break our love for each other and I know you have much more love you could show your father , his has been mourning for 9 years , he misses you Isabella, he needs you"

" I'm all grown up tho " I say

" Ohh sweetie, your just a wee thing , your so small he can still hold you in his arms , you need his love , and he needs yours and you guys have many more years together before your all the way grown"

Luke gets up and holds me in his arms , like this was the last hug he was gonna give me  ....