in an open relationship 2

Chapter 3

" Does that mean you are going to leave him ?"

" Yep , and also I might need  your help on that part " .

He stops in his tracks trying to hide his excitement aware that me leaving Ethan is not enough for him ," Anything for you " , I can sense the impatience in his tone .

"And uh , I have come to a decision ... I want to give us a try " I say without breathing, he remains silent .His eyes pierce deep into mine ," that's if you still want ...."

Overwhelmed by his emotions he throws his arms around me squeezing the life out of my tiny body, his embrace makes my stomach flutter , when he attempts to let go I bring him in a much tighter hug ,' can we stay like this for a little longer' my heart says to his.

I can feel the joy in his embrace like he heard me and his response is ' gladly', it's like I'm in one of those cartoon scenes when the characters heart magically starts beating outside their body .

" I've been longing to hold you since the beginning of this week, I'm glad we are like this I wish I could hold you like this forever" his voice soft and tender , "I was nervous for a second"he expresses.

" I'm also glad , I kind of pictured this moment with a sweet kiss but this will also do " .

Who knew hugs can be this satisfying, my soul is currently connecting with his, our hearts are beating at the same pace, his ocean scent is enticing my spirit and I'm loving every second of it .

.....

On our way back , Kam and I are rolling in and out of different conversations laughing and giggling like high school kids, a part of me is worried about this , the joy in my heart makes me fear that this feeling I habor now might not last long .

" Is something wrong?" He studies me .

I shake my head  bringing up a smile," all is well " I say in a soothing voice.

" are you worried about how things will turn out? " He doesn't wait for my response before he starts justifying himself," I'm not Ethan , you took a leap of faith by giving me a chance and you don't know how much that means to me , Lauren I promise I'll do anything and everything to make sure you never regret this I  ... " .

I put my finger over his lips "shh , I know " I whisper .

He blushes inturn ," let's just take our time, I don't want to scare you or worry you let's just focus on your escape from this marriage first " .

" So what should we do ? ,Since we are already in an open relationship do you think we should tell him ?" .

He looks past me ," I don't trust Ethan we don't know what he might do if he finds out , I'm his friend remember? Even if he doesn't love you , he might react otherwise upon hearing this news , we should lay low until we find a way to get you two divorced without damage " . He says like he's preparing for one of his office presentations weighing all the pros and cons .

" You give me so much hope its cute " .

" You mean I'm cute ?" .

" You are more than cute , you're perfect ...and cute"  genuinely.

" We are standing infront of your gate don't push me into doing something that will get us caught with your words , every compliment that comes from you has a way of stirring up my emotions" .

" Okay fine I won't say more " I mouth ,my whole face is blushing ," goodbye then I'll see you later today" I whisper.

" It's Saturday" he whispers back.

" I know , I'm inviting you to the BBQ " .

"Are you sure that's a good idea?"

"I don't know, probably not".

"Ohh I love this Lauren who is not afraid of taking risks ".

" I love her too ".

"Okay then ,I'll be here ,Can I get a goodbye hug at least " .

" Nope , I want you to yearn for the next coming hours like your life depends on it " I grin wickedly

"Cruel ... But it's fine , I'd like to watch you head safely inside" .

I look back at the house ," okay, goodbye " .

"Goodbye Lauren" he breaks the whispery atmosphere .

it is  too early for the I love yous but it's kind of weird parting ways with just 'goodbye'.

his intense gaze remains on me as I turn my back and walk through the gate , disappearing from his sight  .

I make my way into the house without looking back ,leaning behind the door trying to calm my heart from beating so loudly,  pinching my arm in disbelief
Squeaking like a teenager .