in an open relationship 2

There's chaos in every corner of the house , the huge white tent is being set outside 50 plus men are trying their utmost best to stretch it out , the pop out of their veins makes it evident that their number is still too little for the tent .

It's already 12pm , The caterers arrived hours ago and so did the decorators, in the midst of all this chaos Ethan is nowhere to be seen. I last saw him an hour making phone calls to phone calls , his focus reminds me of the Client event he organised in a week which turned out to be more extravagant then events planned in months , I'm curious to see how he'll pull things off with the few hours he has left but so far he is doing a great job.

Three different designers are here with all their different collections for my family, they are currently inside making their picks . mine hasn't arrived yet she was supposed to be here thirty minutes ago according to Ethan's watch , so I'm currently strolling by the lake watching everyone prepare for my wedding.

I don't feel like the bride , I don't know if it's because Ethan is the one who chose my dress because I haven't seen it or If it's because I feel like a repeat of the wedding we had before is taking place, I'm deceiving him again what's going to crush him more is the fact that I agreed even though I knew I was pregnant with someone else's child,the day he finds out is the day I'm going to live the life of hell I lived before things started to change.

I always knew that when something is too good to be true it usually is , this peace and freedom I have right now I have to enjoy it while it lasts because what will come after is something I don't want to imagine.

And because of the dynamic of our relationship he'll have no choice but to acknowledge the child as his own and if he doesn't want he can just paint my name in Black and red for having an affair before divorcing me and everyone will believe and take his side ,the baby will be his solid evidence against me ... My guess is that this is the path he will take there's no way he'll consider raising someone else's child ,I remember what he said to me the day we were playing massages word for word.

My dad is probably the most happiest in this moment, he always used to talk about his wish of walking us down the aisle and today he's life long dream is finally coming true and the rest of my family is privileged to be apart of a Price wedding, their pictures will be on the news and all over social media and more so they are happy because they weren't invited in the last one . I can't cancel it even if I wanted to.

But maybe this is my excuse, I'm using them as an excuse like Caitlyn said , I want to. I want to get married to Ethan again. This is a fantasy that has been in my mind for the last five years and this day is giving me a chance to live in it , despite all my guilt and worries I don't want to stop it.

I make my way back into the house and find a few of the family members gathered still trying to make their outfit choices.

" Lauren !" Collen calls me over .

I answer and stride toward him, " what do you think ?" He asks .

He's wearing a light blue suit with dark brown leather like shoes and one of those blue magician hats , I study him before chuckling.

" Why are you laughing this is a classic eighties look" he turns around for me to have a proper look.

" Maybe just remove the hat ,it's not a themed wedding ,just think of how laughable the pictures will be " I explain.

" You think ?" He removes the hat ," and now ?" He asks .

" I still don't see it " I shake my head lightly in disapproval," if that's what you want to wear ,then wear it Collen who am I to judge ?" .

" Exactly thank you Lauren , if the bride says don't judge then please don't judge!"  he tells the ones who have been laughing at him at his outfit .

" I was just saying you look like you are going to attend a children's party" cousin Hendry says ," but if Lauren approves then do you bro " he hangs his hand around his shoulder.