in an open relationship 2

It's Sunday evening and I feel like a week has passed already, when we got to the house yesterday I went straight to bed , Ethan kept bringing me medicine I did not need and today I just pretended to be sleeping throughout the day mainly because I'm skeptical about everything.

I agreed to try and make things work with Ethan but I don't think we can just wake up one day and be all lovy dovey towards each other despite how we feel , it's going to take time and real effort, and I think Ethan knows that much.

He's in the kitchen preparing dinner and I'm still in my room wondering if I made the right choice .

I turned my phone off again to avoid Kam this time , I wonder how I'll tell him that I decided to try and make things work with my husband, he'll probably tell me how stupid I am to fall for Ethan's tricks, maybe I am but maybe I'm not , I've dreamt about this day for longer than I can remember,as doubtful as I am I can't let this opportunity slip out of my hands without seeing if I can succeed at it.

Ethan calls me over for dinner, this is starting to be a routine . I exit my room and head towards the dinning area.

" Smells good ,what have you cooked ?" I ask looking at the bowls," is that soup ?".

" Yes " he responds sternly.

" Bone broth ? For dinner at that ?".

"  this will help your body get the boost it needs , remember what you used to say in highschool? ,happy gut equals healthy life " .

"  I'm fine Ethan really , this was not necessary" I say looking down at the soup, he knows how much I hate  born broth, my dad used to make it for me when I was sick as a child , regardless of the many times I've had it my buds don't get used to it.

"  you don't look fine to me , you are still in your PJs at 7:30 " he gives me a disapproving look," I know how you feel about the soup but it always helped,I'm sure it will now ".

I glance down at my outfit, I can't tell Ethan the real reason I feel so down , I  can't stop thinking about Kam , in the midst of all that thinking I realised I only liked him because of the freedom he offered me , but now that I have it outside him those feelings just faded away but because I'm human I can't help but worry about him since he's feelings towards me are genuine .

" Are you not going to eat ?" He asks.

" No , it's fine,I will have it ".

We are sitting opposite each other awkwardly eating our soup.

" Are you having second thoughts already?" he adds staring at his bowl.

" No , I was just thinking about Caitlyn" I lie.

" What about her ?" He doesn't meet my gaze.

" She's not going to like this idea " .

" Why ? ".

I give him an obvious shrug," because she hates you " .

He smirks huffing," not because she likes Austin better?" His question hits the core.

" She likes him ?, I'm not sure that's it " I scratch the back of my neck.

" I saw them at the anniversary,those two are like the best of friends ,I was kind of confused how they got so familiar with each other but now I know why " he sips the soup off his spoon.

I don't respond.

" She'll get used to it " he tries to comfortably sit up .

" Let's hope so ".

" Good thing I don't need her approval so how she reacts towards us is on her , it won't change anything right?" His expression is stern but his soft tone is begging.