in an open relationship 2

I wake up the next morning to a lavender scent I'm too familiar with, as I open my eyes despite how heavy my brain is it recognises that this is not the house I live in .

I've been here before....

I leap out of bed ,the decor in its entirety has not changed, although the angle is not the same but I can tell I'm in Kams apartment just in a different room then the one I was in last time , this room is the exact replica of the other one .

I don't know why I'm searching my own body , panic takes over my mind as I rush to the kitchen ready to chew his head off , he must've taken advantage of me whilst I was asleep.

I find him at the exact position I did the last time ,my mind convinces me that this is one of those deja vu dreams but I know it feels all too real for it not to be true.

" How did you find me ?,Why did you bring me here ?" I snap.

He turns around with his apron on , he is wearing a tight white shirt that outlines his muscles.

" I asked you what am I doing here ?" I say through gritted teeth ," I thought I told you we were over " .

He quietly watches me with his cute self and grabs his glasses off the table.

Unbothered ." Good morning to you too Mrs Price" he cleans them with a cloth before putting them on .

Miranda suddenly appears wearing an oversize shirt of which  I'm sure belongs to Kam . My mind stops .

" Good morning Lauren" she greets me gleefully.

I'm on freeze mode ," hello ?, Is the headache killing you ?. Here Kayden made this " she gives me a bottle that looks like it was made with green substances only.

" It works like heaven" she says .

I twist the bottle in my hand and look at it all around," Miranda?.how did I end up here?".

" Oh , I was too drunk to drive last night and you had already passed out by the time we were supposed to leave so I called Kayden to come and pick us up" .

she skips to him and plants a soft kiss on his lips .

I must be dreaming.

" Don't worry he'll take you home after breakfast" she sees the look on my face . I'm mortified.

I try to act calm " And the two of you ?".

She looks at Kam and chuckles," oh I forgot to tell you , we all were so busy we barely had time to speak , Kayden and I are a thing now " she blushes at him .

' what about when we were driving to the club?, You could've told me then' I say internally.

" Oh I see " I try and act calm," didn't you visit Kams home this past week ?" I ask .

" Kam ?" She looks at him and quickly catches on "Well yeah"

" That's when you finalized things ?" .

" Yeah " she replies doubtfully.

" Isn't it a bit too quick ?" .

I forget that Austin is in the room with us because of how silent he is and how confused I am because of what I'm seeing.

" 'Kam' and I have known each other for the longest years and we both thought it was only right to make things official ,we are not strangers".

I laugh awkwardly " yes , that makes sense " .

I'm officially embarrassed at the way I approached Austin, he might start to think that I still want him . it puts me on the losing side .

" Sit let's have breakfast, Kayden prepared it".

" I can tell " .

I sit opposite the both of them unsure of how I should carry myself.

" Kayden's penthouse is pretty cool huh?"

" Yes " I pretend to look around like I've not been here before,I'm the only one feeling awkward about this situation and Austin looks like he's  not even trying.

Miranda is Mrs fierce but around Austin and when it concerns Austin she's like a teenager .

" Don't you want to drink the concoction first before eating?" .

" No actually I haven't even brushed my teeth yet ".

" No worries, Kayden has a package  of new brushes in his wardrobe ".

" No it's fine , I can just use water " I lift from my chair," I'll be back ".

" The bathroom is on your...".

I didn't even hear her speak,my mind is clouded with jealousy. I think it's jealousy.

I look at my own reflection on the bathroom mirror, it's real , I'm not dreaming, I can't sit with them and eat breakfast like everything is okay .

maybe everything is okay ,why should I be worried?, Austin and I ended a long time ago, he deserves to be happy,he deserves someone like Miranda, this will release me of the guilty feelings I've been having.

I compose myself and head back out .

I'm sitting opposite them once again.

" How'd you know where the bathroom was ?" She asks.

I want to say I've been here before out of spite but these two did nothing wrong to me I don't know why I'm mad.

" Instinct I guess " .

They  start talking about their own stuff giving me zero attention, I feel invisible in this moment, it's like I'm watching a teen couple drama , there's no word to describe the way they click , ' it's because they were friends first ' I comfort myself.

They're minds ,likes and dislikes don't seem to be that far off each other's .

Austin has forgotten about me , the spark he had when he spoke to me in the past is gone , he only said good morning to me and not a word after , maybe it's not that I'm jealous,I'm just a little offended by the way he acts like I no longer exist.

My phone rings which cuts their conversation off.

"Is it Ethan ?" She asks.

I nod and pick up.

" Our session starts in an hour where are you Lauren?"he doesn't sound that upset.

" I'll be there in a moment" , I hang up and lift from my chair.

Mirandas eyes reflect her fear ," is everything alright, should Kayden take you home?" .

" No , uh , Ethan and I are going to counseling which starts in an hour so I'm going to have to head straight to where the offices are " .

She breathes out slowly," I don't want to be responsible for making you guys fall apart after the effort you put in , I was scared for a moment ".

" I'll see you guys around then " .

" Still Kayden can take you ".

" No no , don't bother , I'll just take a cab , you two enjoy your bonding session and I wish you all the best " .

" You too , I hope things workout with you and Ethan ".

" Sure ,bye " I hastily leave the penthouse without waiting for their response.

It's natural for me to feel some type of way about their relationship even though I don't have a right to but Kam happens to be my first and I'd be lying if I said I'm completely immune to him , it was  weird for me to sit opposite them and watch their lovey dovey moments , I felt somewhat wronged.