in an open relationship 2

It doesn't feel like my dalfi, it's not that no one is showing me attention I'm the one who keeps rejecting them because of how weird my body feels, somethings wrong,I just don't know what , my head feels heavy and so do my feet .

'It must be the overeating' , I don't think it's the alcohol because Mayfair never really does anything to me only after the 15th cup .

After finishing the fourth can my head starts spinning in circles,I'm trying my utmost best to keep my eyes open and not fall to the ground.

" Are you okay ?" Ashley notices .

" Yes " I murmur," I don't know, I need to lie down for a few seconds ".

" Should I take you to the house then ?" .

I nod , trying to reduce the heat that has taken over my body by means of breathing.

She lifts me from the bench ," should I call Ethan ?".

" No it's fine ,I just need to lie down it's nothing serious" , I hide my face from revealing this unbearable feeling that I'm experiencing.

We make our way into the house that is decorated in all white ,I want to stop and look at it but I can hardly focus .

She lays me on the bed and lingers .

" Will you be alright?".

" Yes, don't alarm anyone you know how fragile my dad is ".

" Is it the Mayfair?" She asks suspiciously.

" I don't think so " I reply panting.

" You don't look too good , you aren't really pregnant so what could be the problem " .

" I don't know,one minute I feel nauseous and the next I feel dizzy, I can't point out the actual problem....."

Piercing pain attacks my abdomen, I wince at this restraining myself from  holding or even touching it.

" I'll be fine Ashley, let me get some rest " I say dismissively.

She raises her hand in defeat ," fine I'll let you be" .

She makes her exit.

Baring the attacks I force myself to fall asleep which inevitably happens.

Later I open my eyes,my body is light as if what happened was a dream , I'm faced with skinny light legs and a short Scottish skirt.

" You came back ? , You are being too nice it's starting to scare me , who are you and what did you do to Ashley?" I sit up straight and stare at her .

" I'm still human , and my visit to your house was eye opening, I discovered something really important" she says twisting her right leg in front of the other .

" Which is ?" I look up narrowing my eyes .

" I don't hate you , I hated and still hate the perfect Lauren with the perfect life , and you are not her so I've been rude and unfair to you for no reason" she throws something next to me on the bed.

" What Is this ?" I pick the box up and read , the word pregnancy draws my attention I don't need to read test to see it.

" Just take it ".

" I'm not pregnant".

" A friend of mine had a similar experience as you when we were at the club , we took her to the doctor and he went on and on about pregnancy being different for every woman, something about a whatever condition that doesn't allow her to drink in her state so what if you are suffering from the same thing "  ,she sits next to me .

" So is it your husband's or ?" she rolls her tongue on the corner of her mouth .

" Are you trying to get the latest gossip ?, Is that why you are being nice ?", I feel the need to erase the image of Ethan I planted on her head that day that makes her suddenly so accepting of me ," Ethan and I are working things out " I tell her.

" Oh " there's a hint of disappointment in her expression," is that why Hottie is here with his twin looking girlfriend ?".

I raise my eyebrows in agreement.

She gasps," that's so messed up , he came to your dalfi with his plus one knowing that you'd be here ?" Her eyes widen then she laughs ," if only you had a TV show I'm sure you'd have million streamers " she gasps again," you are technically a celebrity so it shouldn't be hard for you to make it happen, you'd definitely get handsome money for it " she is way too delighted at this news .

" What's even more shocking is that Ethan knows, when I was trying to bad mouth you he stopped me so how is he okay with Hottie being here ?" She engages in a conversation of her own.

" Are you drunk?" I ask .

" No , drinking is my hobby loves there's no way " she falls on the bed and looks at the ceiling," you know I  never imagined that you and I could be so much alike, I wish I could read minds so that I can read Ethan's".

I sigh ," you can ask God to give you that ability " .

" That's impossible" she sighs as well," I heard Caitlyn tell Jen that you Huns are not in talking terms ".

" You are not getting anything out of me Ashley forget it , if I get drunk maybe but your G nanny antics won't soften me ".

" At least tell me what happened to Sarah?" She pushes .

I stare at her in dead silence.

" You are no fun" she sits straight up , " I'm going to have a drink and kiss Austin given the current situation I think I'm allowed to now " she drags her skinny self out .

I get out of the bed and stare at the box , I'm considering taking it but I know I'm not pregnant so why should I bother ?, I ask myself.

I  throw it in the pink bin near the door but something forces me to pick it up again, my appetite and my mood swings are my compellers, I decide that it won't hurt to take it .

I think every bedroom of this house has a bathroom in it , I wonder if there's a master or if they are all equal.

.....

Slumped against the bathroom wall I hold back the thousand tears that will expose my heartache and worsen my condition, I can hear songs of regret playing in the back of my mind .

" Damnit Lauren damnit" I slam my head with my fist .

Things haven't even started progressing between me and my husband something like this will produce a terrible outcome, he is definitely going to destroy me ,that Ethan that everyone fears might come back again, I like this one even though he's not that open and emotional but he's willing.

Austin is not even talking to me he does it when he's compelled.

They involuntarily start pouring down my eyes , just when things were starting to be promising,just when hope was starting to be revived,just when I was starting to live again, a baby had to come along.

I'm screwed .