in an open relationship 2

The following morning..... I went to bed early last night because I was starting to experience weird cramps ,my suspicion is of the food I ate , I couldn't stop eating the samosas ,they didn't taste like the normal kind that I'm used to ,if it were up to me I'd hire whoever made them to be my personal chef , Ethan was the one who insisted that I go to bed even though we weren't done with our meeting and greeting .

The tent has been removed like it was never there , I don't know when the guests left I just know my family came in after four o'clock.

The weather is around 14 degrees Celsius. I'm in my oversized yellow hoodie strolling on the freshly green cut grass , taking in the beauty of nature like always, I stride toward the lake where I spot a male figure in a huge black hoodie throwing rocks at it.

It's the father of my child.
" Good morning", I test my luck to see if he's still in a bad mood.

" I thought you'd be asleep" he says .

I present myself in front of him blocking his view from the lake , he seems calmer than last night .

" I went to bed early" I say smiling politely . I scan his eyes to see if there's any sign of hatred. He stands quietly and lets me study him.

his expression displays peace. I move to his side and allow him to continue with what he was doing.

" Were you checking if I was still mad ?".

" Correct" I answer,my hands are in my pocket with my focus on the pure white water .

" I'm not good with grudges you should know that by now ".

I pout mumbling in my mind about how false that is ,he ignored me for months I think that's something only a person with a grudge can do but I don't want to say it because I don't want to ruin his mood.

" It's beautiful right ?" He asks.

I nod in agreement.

" The view ?,this whole place is beautiful,it's peaceful "I express.

"  that's why you are not in your blankets drinking hot chocolate in this cold weather ... If you like it so much why don't you ask your husband to buy it?" He says so simply.

" Huh?" I rewind his words in the back of my mind to ensure that I heard him correctly.

" You heard me , peace is of utmost importance , people chase money because they think it'll give them peace and that they'll stop worrying about bills etc and then they find out later that money isn't the answer " .

I take in his words ,Ethan's old house has memories I still want to forget every corner of that house reminds me of every incident that occurred between us that wasn't pleasant .

" If you find something that gives you peace, hold on to it ,in your case it's this place , besides Ethan is rich enough to convince the owners to sell it , hats off to the guy ,I didn't think he'd be able to pull a whole wedding at such short notice, I'm sure this occasion will trend for the months to come" .

" You think ?, In that case I'll try and talk to him ".

" Don't try , convince him , if he doesn't listen to you then he certainly is still in acting mode ".

I chuckle " Say it plainly , if he rejects the idea then he doesn't love me ".

He laughs," and if he doesn't,you know someone who does . My door is always open " he teases . Austin plays too much it's hard to guess when he's being for real and when he's just teasing.

I laugh along like I believe he's only joking.

He then sighs ," I'm sorry for last night".

I stop too." I'm the one who is sorry ".

" still I shouldn't have done that on your wedding day ,it was wrong of me but I guess what's done cannot be undone " ,he says still picking up rocks and throwing them into the lake.

" You don't hate me ?" I ask .

He chuckles ," I can never hate anyone and especially you , I can never hate you " his tone weakens at the end .

" Great . I take it we are cool then ?" I beam at him.

" We are cool Lauren Price, we are cool" .

Him being this nice makes me want to tell him the truth , no matter how hard I might try to deny it ,I still care about him .

" Congratulations" he says .

" You already congratulated me yesterday "

" Not on the wedding, on the baby ".

Anxiety all of a sudden starts poisoning my blood .

His gentle eyes study me ," relax ,I won't go around telling people you are actually pregnant ,after my conversation with you I was so furious I went to vent out to Caitlyn because she's the only one who knows the truth,after we spoke I realised why you took the decision you did ,she painted you in such a good light I almost didn't believe her when she said she was mad at you  , I won't ask for your details of the when and the hows because it's no longer my place " .

" Oh . Right.Caitlyn " I rub the end of my oversize sleeves over the other .

" I didn't mean my congratulations yesterday, but I mean it now , congratulations,I really do wish you all the best , you and your family ,take my advice,if you want a fresh start you can start with this place ,you are a simple person,that big Fabulous house is not your style I never believed for a second that you are after the money" .

I can't reveal the truth to him but I can give him a goodbye hug , the project is coming to an end and he's leaving town for good, since we are alone out here I feel like this is the time to do it.

" Can I get a hug ?" I let my eyes do the begging.

He stops taking a glance at me" No " ,he whispers in a defeated voice.

" Why ?" .

" We are cool Maybe after the hug we won't be cool , I like being on talking terms with you , maybe the next time I stop by this town we'll have lunch and talk like nothing ever happened,that's what I want right now more than anything ".

" And a hug will ruin that ?".

" In order for me to not have any sort of hope, something as simple as a hug will ruin that" he says grinning .

" A hand shake then " ,I stretch out my hand .

" Seems like you are eager to say goodbye to me ,I'm sure we'll still bump into each other at the office" he says looking at my hand dismissively.

" No hand shake then " .

" Just a wave ", he answers.

" Feels like you are done with me , At this rate I don't see the lunch happening ".

" It will ,maybe five years from now , you can bring your son or daughter with so I can see who he or she takes after , I hope it's a boy , because if it's a girl she'll be a heart breaker like the mother " he teases.

I push every thought of guilt into an endless pit, I laugh at what he said .

"Oops if it shouldn't be a boy either because it'll be as toxic as the father " he adds.

I let his comment fly over my head ," A wave it is then " .

We both wave at each other smiling like we mean it because we know it is really goodbye.