in an open relationship 2

Chapter 67

The one person I thought would help me at this time has slammed the door in my face , he's not just anyone,he happens to be the father of my child.

" Did Kam really just?" I laugh through my tears trying to process everything that just happened.

My body remains stationary for a whole five minutes until I snap back into reality, I lost him , for good .

Miranda is the owner of his heart now , I always hoped it would be me even when I heard of their engagement I didn't think he was doing it out of love but I realise now that I should've seen it coming.

the Kam who was in love with me would've jumped to help me , he never wanted to see me distressed in anyway, this one stared down at me ,unmoved , all he cares about was Miranda and being seen by his in laws , them being here means the wedding is drawing near .

The rain starts pouring as I leave the complex and my mind takes me straight back to that day he stood on the porch staring at my window with a board in his hand, I felt compassion for him but refused to relent because although I cared about him I cared about Ethan more , in my mind I convinced myself I was ignoring him for his sake- that if Ethan were to see him it would be over for him but deep down I knew the truth .

I hop into my car and call Caitlyn.

" hello . Did you see him ?" .

" Yes ".

" And ? , Will he be able to help you?" .

I laugh and cry silently so that she doesn't hear me ," no ".

" But how ?, He knows people too,I'm sure he can come up with a plan ".

" If he wanted to ".

She goes quiet," oh ".

" I don't blame him ,Kate , I knew how he felt about me and he didn't deserve all that I put him through, I also wouldn't want to be apart of my mess if I were him, I think this is just his way of doing himself justice ".

" But that doesn't sound like him , the Austin I've come to know wouldn't leave a mouse without water what more about you ? ".

" You should've seen the look on his face , that guy hates me".

" Wait , explain to me what happened,did you tell him about the baby at least ".

" No ,he didn't give me the chance to, he was too worried about Miranda and her family being aware of my presence " my tone is humble.

" Mirandas family is at Austin's  place ?... Should I call him for you ".

" No , let him be , if he doesn't want to help then we shouldn't guilt trip him , I'll sort it out on my own, it was stupid of me to drive down here with everything that has happened between us ".

" I know this is not the time but you really did do him dirty , you were his first Lauren ".

" He told you that ".

" I mentioned that to you didn't I ? I must've mixed you with someone else.  hearing him talk like that made me feel like I was in his shoes , I get that you blame yourself but even with everything that has happened he still deserves to know ".

" Ethan said I was selfish which I'm starting to believe, the best thing I can do for Kam is stay away from him , imagine what would happen if Miranda found out ?, They are only beginning their path to happiness, who am I to ruin that ? , He deserves a good woman like Miranda, not me . Don't bother him , I'll come up with a plan by the morning to bring down Ethan .this is my fight" , I say courageously like my heart is not weeping at the thought of Kam rejecting me .

I have to learn to stand on my own, I've been a sidekick for too long I don't know what it's like being the hero, I don't want to have to constantly depend on someone else to fight my battles.

"Should I close the shop tomorrow and come with you ?".

"No. I don't want you to be involved, It has come to my attention that I don't know my husband. this is the part where I grow up and take back what's rightfully mine , I'm done being Ethan's doormat , I'll take him down on my own just you watch me " I wipe my face clear and stare at my reflection through the rear window.

" I'm fully behind you . Is there nothing I can do to help?" .

" You can pray for me ".

" Okay I'll wait for you to come back".

" Okay , I'll talk to you later then ".

I'm not planning on going back to Caitlyn's, comfortable sleep is not of any importance to me .

I take out my phone to post about my conference but my phone keeps kicking me out of my Instagram, I attempt twitter and Facebook and the glitch is the same .