The last few months of trying to be myself have been hard. I no longer know how people view me and can't predict how they will react to me. I've lost some control over my social interactions and though my mate Mandy keeps saying it will get easier and I'll get used to it I don't want to. I like knowing how people are gonna behave towards me and now I'm in the dark. Another thing is that because I'm so confused about who I am I make other people confused and so they just won't approach me. I feel very invisible when we're in a crowd and everyone is hitting on Mandy and ignore me. Yeah they're all guys hitting on her and I'm into girls but I still want to be noticed!
Also, though I'm proud of Mandy and everyone getting into university, I'm so jealous that they're out partying and making their dreams come true. I'll never have that opportunity. I spend so much of my time wishing for something to happen to me and I know it won't. People say you have to make it happen. I say I'm gonna end up alone in a dead end job. I hate my life and myself so freaking much. I don't deserve anything good and I HATE IT!
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My Journey To Normality (Part 1)
Short Story?This is a story based on true events about someone who is on their journey to recovery from mental illness. Their questioning of gender and sexuality. Going through relationships and break ups. Just an all about coming of age story of a person that...
