My Journey To Normality (Part 1)

I so badly want to tell Mandy everything that's going on in my head. Dealing with mental health is like carrying very heavy bags and when you meet someone who will take a bag you're so quick to tell them everything so you don't have to carry it anymore. With Mandy I'm trying to hold off with giving her my luggage to carry because we're still building the friendship back up. I don't want to freak her out just yet. I always feel like I only talk about myself and I feel shit because of it. I honestly don't mean to talk about myself a lot, but I think it's because when I'm talking to someone I relate to whatever they're saying with life experiences. That's how things make sense to me and how I understand what's being told to me. I'm not sure if that's just me or if there's someone out there who understands what I just said and feels the same way. The last thing I want is for Mandy to think that my feelings are more important than hers again so I keep trying to ask questions.

I'm just feeling so overwhelmed by everything at the moment. Stress for me is a massive trigger and I find it really hard to deal with it. Tomorrow will be the 8th day in a row that I've worked and it's gonna be on the busiest stand. I just need to stay calm and relax.