Secrets (Draco x reader)

~time skip to the night of the Yule Ball~

Y/n pov:
I was on my way downstairs to meet Cedric at the entrance of the Great Hall where the Ball was taking place. On the way down, I saw Hermione and she looked stunning.

"Damn girl, you look breathtaking" I tell her and she blushes a little. "Oh shut it y/n!" she says with a nervous smile. "You look gorgeous Hermione. Now, I'm gonna go downstairs and you make a big entrance, okay? You deserve one" I said with a wink and went downstairs.

When I was downstairs, Cedric came up to me. "Wow, you look amazing" he said and I thanked him with a shy smile. He took me to his friends and I didn't really talk a lot. I am a pretty shy person around people I don't really know, but when I do know them, I can go crazy.

I saw Draco standing near the entrance of the Hall. He winked at me and I smiled. I also noticed his glares towards Cedric before he walked inside the Hall. It's sweet of him that he's so protective over me, but I was gonna be fine... Right?

I smiled when I noticed that Hermione came down the stairs. I saw Harry and Ron, but mostly Ron, stare at her with surprise. "Yep, if Romione isn't meant to be I don't know it anymore!" I thought to myself.

Professor McGonagall told us to get ready for the opening dance and I felt so damn nervous but we went inside and did the dance. Everyone started joining the champions and their dates on the dancefloor and the Ball had begun.

After some time, we weren't dancing anymore and I was sitting with Cedric and his friends. They were all talking about stuff I didn't know anything about and I felt so out of place. Also, Cedric was kinda acting like an asshole.

I don't have feelings for Cedric, let's make that very clear. But I also didn't want to say no to him asking me to the Ball, because I didn't want to hurt his feelings. Well it turns out that I actually should have said no, fuck his bloody feelings.

There was this fifth year Ravenclaw girl: Cho chang. She seemed very nice but it turns out that I don't like her at all. Cedric was constantly talking with her and he didn't really pay much attention to me.

So I'm not jealous, because I don't like Cedric that way, but I am hurt though. He was the one to ask me and now he didn't even seem to care about me anymore. No one was really talking to me so after some time I was just done.

I stood up and walked away and no one even noticed that I left. I really did feel hurt and I could feel the tears stinging in my eyes but no one was going to see them, I would make sure of that. I walked out of the Great Hall as calmly as I could and went to the bathroom.

I may act like I'm tough and like stuff like this doesn't hurt me, but I'm not and it does. I had learned a long time ago that showing your emotions to everyone is not a good strategy. So I acted tougher than I actually was but unfortunately I can't act it out so well that it actually doesn't hurt anymore.

No one was in the bathroom, so I just punched my back against the wall and slit down until I reached the ground. The tears where running down my cheeks and I tried not to sob. I would curse myself if anyone would hear and see me like this.

"This is who you really are y/n, this is what you really are. You are a weak, pathetic, useless creature. No one actually cares about you and everything back there was the proof of that."

I stood up, trembling and walked towards the sink. I put both my hands on the sides and stared at my tear stained face in the mirror. My anger and sadness took control over my body. I punched the wall so hard that my hand hurt like hell and I let out a soft growl of pain.

I looked at my right hand and my skin was right on the edge of breaking. If I had punched any harder, my knuckles would've been bleeding.

I was still shaking and went to sit down on the windowsill. I felt a little dizzy and my head hurt from all the crying. I tried to calm myself down when someone knocked on the outside door of the bathroom. "Who the fuck knocks on the outside door of a bathroom?"

I ignored the knock and calmed down a little bit more. Then there was another knock. "Y/n, are you in there?" It was a male voice, oh so that's why they knocked. I didn't recognize the voice at first, because I still had that headache but then the person spoke again.

"Y/n, I know you well enough to know when you're not okay. I'm really sorry but I-I don't wanna come into the girls' bathroom, it feels wrong. Could you please come out?"

I was still a little shaky but now I knew who the voice belonged to. "That bloody Slytherin! Perfect, now he knows I'm weak like his friends always say I am."

"Y/n darling, please come out. I wanna help you, I really do.... At least answer me" Draco said in a really worried tone. "How the hell did he know I was in here?"

"Y/n if you don't come out in ten seconds, I will brake this damned door down." I stayed silent but slowly stepped towards the door, still shaking a little.

I opened the door and walked out slowly. Draco immediately grabbed my face, but in a soft manner. "I know you're not okay y/n, I know you too well not to see that. Did he say something wrong? Did he hurt you?"

His voice was soft and worried but I knew he was also very angry. I knew him too well not to see that too. He was gonna hurt Cedric so bad if I told him everything now.

A/n

Okay well damn this was a long chapter, longest one already. I hope you liked it even though it was sort of sad...

See ya in the next chapter, take care luvs❤