Let Me Hate You First [ISWAH Part 1] Completed

"Shit," I cursed when someone threw a juice in my uniform.

"Hoy! Lalaking akala mo ay supiryor! May gana ka pang magalit eh ikaw naman ang bumangga sa 'kin!"

The moment we met our eyes, I knew that she is the one I am looking for, for years. Shasha. Ellaine. I finally found you, my universe. All of the memories in the past flashes back into my reality. From the day I met her in Batangas, as well as she performed in Batangas too.

I am glad that I can see her now. If I could embrace her right now, I will. But what if she avoids me? I promised her that we both watched fireworks way back then, but I didn't have a chance to grant this, because I was a little late, I saw her hugging by Thunder.

I am still afraid to lose her. Ngayon, ayaw ko nang mawala siya muli sa mundo ko. Matagal ko siyang hinanap, alam kong ganoon din siya, kaya ayaw ko nang sayangin pa ang pagkakataong binigay sa akin ng tadhana.

As the days pass by, she keeps saying that she admires me whenever I was on the stage, giving a speech without even looking at my script. I couldn't help but be soft and tease her. I am scared to lose her, that is why I keep my silence and don't bring the past. I want to make some assurance that she misses me too.

So, I made some plans to make her fall in love with me. But everything was ruined because of Myles Justine Alvarez. I can't make move to her, because he keeps watching my moves. I know that he is just making me mad, not until I lose my patience. I lose control because I saw her crying. Sinaktan nito ang puso ng mahal ko.

"Don't . . . you dare . . . to hurt her, again!" I roared as I punched his face. "You moron."

And I was about to punch him again and suddenly, she made her way to protect MJ. "TAMA NA!" Tatangkain ko muling suntukin si MJ nang bigla niya akong sinampal. I was shocked and go back my usual expression.

"You still defend him huh. I see, you still don't know."

"Tama na," she whisphered. "Tama na ito, Zander. Sumosobra ka na."

"But I guess, you don't give a damn about me," I told to myself.

After that incident, she didn't talk to me that lasts for five months. She's the first one who talks to me, parang sasabog na ang aking puso dahil sa nangyaring iyon. She is very innocent to be hurt, therefore I made a move again. This time, I knew that she's into me, but again, I keep myself to be quiet and let her admit it, ayaw ko siyang pilitin sa kanyang nararamdaman. Hahayaan ko siyang maging bukal sa mga sasabihin niya. Ayaw kong mahalin niya ako dahil mahal ko siya. Gusto kong mahalin niya ako kasi siya ang pumili. At tama nga ako, gusto niya ako dati pa, pero hindi niya magawang umamin dahil sa maling akala.

"Ellaine," I called her name.

I knew she thought that I kiss Katherine, but that was a wrong interpretation. I never cheated on her. I never, ever do that.

"Nalimutan kong sabihin sa 'yo kanina na, happy birthday." Tumalikod ito at huminga ng malalim. "Wo de ai," pabulong nitong sambit at tuluyan na nga siyang naglakad papalayo sa akin.

I lose another chance, and that was because of Katherine.

Until she avoids me again and hated me. But I didn't lose hope. I lose a chance but the hope was not. This time, I will do everything just to make her fall deeply into me. Handa kong ibigay ang lahat, alang-alang sa pag-ibig ko sa kanya. I lose her many times but rest assured that I will don't this time. Para siyang nakalagay na sa aking sistema kaya ang hirap niyang pakawalan at bitawan.